true love

it's not that Easy...

2011-09-27T14:11:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum...

Hey there.. hum..hum... it's been a while folks i haven'y update any article yeah..

Today is exhausting day ever.. This whole weeks is my exam week. It's not because of the exam made worn out. The thing is, at my University their system is out dated ... Seriously IT IS people.

Their admin people are so slow and as if, they trying so hard to make students life more difficult... Hmm no wonder their people no progress, their facility is outdated.. Ohh my my...

Just imagine there's this Dean (so called), loves to make students life miserable. Our group is trying to get his sign coz of this one issue, and with love he make a fuss. He demand 52 students gather all and see him and make a letter each one of us .. then he will sign... OMG!!! what kind of people is this.. from 9am (after modul 1 xm end) until 12.30 noon we have to this unnecessary thing..

When i live at this country, i really be grateful that i live in Malaysia seriously people. Now i know how hard life is. How hard to earn money, how fuss to pay all the electricity. Here.. Now.... i learn that before we choose a place to live, we have to ask n considered all kind of things. Safety, the bills, in all direction we have to try minimize using money to buy things that are not important.

Students be grateful .. and always do pray for your family health,wealth n iman for THE DAY..

Ya allah kuatkanlah hambaMU ini...

Aku hanyalah insan yg kerdil...

ampunilah dosaku dan kedua ibu bapa ku dan sahabat2 ku..

Murahkanlah rezeki kami Ya Rabb..

all Mix up

2011-09-11T02:58:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum...

It's been a while i haven't post any update yeah..

Thousands of things to tell to share... to laugh.. to cry.. to love..

It is just depend on my diligent though..

I want to wish congratulation to Badiuzzaman.. my dear senior who just got married.. Indeed i'm truly shock when i just noted that he's married.. wow!! Hurm 23 yrs old.. okay i guess..

I've start my 2nd semester in USU and now i do have juniors. wink2.. hehehheheh

my result for the 1st semester is not as i hope it will turn out. Yeah.. it is definitely not that easy to get 3 you know. I do try my very best at that moment. I guess i have to try super duper harder.

Well it has been 1 week since i'm in Medan. Until now, im having on and off fever + flu heavily + sore throat +dizzy = me that are weak and not able to concentrate my study very well...

Poor me, it's okay than. It is a test for me not to surrender heheh...

Yesterday is my dear friend birthday Nazrin. I wonder how is he. Hurmm..

Hope you doing well my friend. Thanks for your advise all this while although we rarely catch up.

I would love to give some advise.

~ If we want to have a great friend (sahabat) i mean a real friend that could be our mother to nag, b our sister to rely on. Thus do find friend that devout.

Friends.. surrounding.. do give an effect to our personality.

through times..

we meet and tie a connection...called friendship..

every now and then..

we meet new people and tag along with them..

after some time..

without our eye on..

we're not that close to the people who use to be close with us..

But only some will remain by your side.. SOME..

other's are just a part our daily life social..

to be loved by our Greatest Allah s.w.t is everyone wishes..

Thus, do love our self and His creation..

and get close to Him. by every meaning..

~solah never forget, bertahmid, berzikir..

Jikalau anda menjaga hubungan baik anda dgn Allah s.w.t maka Allah akan menjaga hubungan baik kamu sesama manusia..

Kita hanya usaha DIa yang menentukan segalanya. Jadi, mintalah kepada NYA...

Maafkan diriku yang khilaf ini..

Yang sering alpa dengan duniawi dan kenikmatan yang dihadiahkan ALlah kepadaku..

~ SurRogAte ~

2011-03-07T22:25:00.002+08:00

Dear bloggie,

its been a while i haven't update my blog. Pity my blog.There's so many event happened through out my life in Medan. Bittersweetness of life in Medan.. Live. Learn. Keep on learning and moving forward. Sometimes, it took us to make a few wrong turn in order to understand the real meaning of that situation itself.

I always say 2 myself.. "Hati dan perasaan hadir tanpa diundang"..

WE only plans.. Allah know's better than we.. Thus, everything happens, there's a reason for it.

How can a person attracted to the other person just in one day? How can it happened?We don;t know why. Or why is it so complicated just to met the right ones. How can a person fall in love with the person at ones? we never know the answer.. Because the answer and the question we ask ourself is lies within ourself.. No one else.. So ask urself where is the love?

In my point of view. I rather let it be.. Juat follow the flow. If there's sparks here and there, u'll know his/her the one. We just have to keep moving forward.

What i realize all this while is, every where we go..

~ we gonna break and make anew relationship..

Regardless, as a friend or a lover...

U'll gonna miss the one that has been ur past..

But u'll be excited to get to know new people.. environment..

There'll be memories created within our relationship..

Cherish it.. rejoice them..

~ for everything you have missed

u have gained something else,

n for everything u gain.. u lose sumthing else..

It is about ur outlook towards life..

You can either regret or rejoice ..

P/s i love Allah s.w.t for everything.. my family for supporting all this while.. and my beloved Medan friends.. Once i find the right one.. I'll take a very gud care of that person heart.. regardless. Meanwhile, study is my priority.. Do appreciate ppl around u..

continue studying..

Living Of LoVe

2011-01-02T22:07:00.001+08:00

For just one chance to find
Love was someone that you loved to find
For just the sense to try
To walk ahead and leave the pain behind
If the days aren’t easy and the nights are rough
When they ask you what you’re thinking of
Say love, say for me love
Your heart says not again
What kind of mess have you got me in
But when the feelings there
It can lift you up and take you anywhere
But the gravel beneath you and the limbs above
If anybody asks you where your coming from
Say love, say for me love
Say yes we live uncertainty
And disappointments have to be
And everyday we might be facing more
And yes we live in desperate times
But fading words and shaking rhymes
There’s only one thing here worth hoping for
With Lucifer beneath you and God above
If either one of them asks you what your living of
Say love, say for me love

~DoWncaSt~

2010-12-12T10:32:00.002+08:00

Morning peeps..

i'm feeling very deeply down..

what i've planned before i came here, has vanished..

i didn't planned that i would feel lost.. i didn't planned i would be this sorrow..

i didn't planned i'm gonna have a close guy friend..

I didn't assign for any post in any clubs..

Myplan is.. stay my head focus on the game..

No any disturbance...

Ya Allah.. kuatkanlah hambaMu ini...

Jgnlah ujianMu ini akan memberi efek kpd pelajaran ku..

Niat ku hanya satu..

Belajar dan grad..And have a nice job to support my family...

What we planned, hardly follows as we plan...

I'm not strong enough to deal with this...yet

i'm not the type of person who share my sorrow with others...

i'm not like that..

The only therapeutic for me to engulf my sorrowness is only by writing...

How i wish.. i could let it out...

How i wish.. at first place.. I'm a decent person and not that outstanding so that i could follow my game plan..

I'm speechless... One thing my request..

Jagalah hubungan baik kami Ya Allah..

Hanya Engkau Maha Mengetahui apa yg ku rasakan saat ini....

I never cried this often....

sedihhh.. penat.. tak larat.. tolonglah

~enigma~

2010-11-24T04:38:00.002+08:00

Hey there folks. I just wondering why? Why suddently things change drasticly.. What are the caused that trigger this changes.I wonder. But whatever his action. I believe he has his own reason.. I do need an explanation!!! Arghhhh... It's not i can't focus.. But yeah.. people ussually said ' jiwa kacau'.. WOW!!!

Change is needed.. A gap is needed.. So do an explanation though. enigma... Life.. Karma.. Fate all has it links.. Yeah..

~Veiled~

2010-11-12T02:39:00.002+08:00

Dear bloggie, ahah.. it's been a while haven't updating my blog. Well 4 the entry i would wish 4 the Muslim 'selamat hari raya qurban'.. On top of that, best wishes and best of luck in our upcoming xm for FKG-10. 6 days left. Wow.. time is running past by though. Very seldom i would post something about feelings and what i feel. Ussually i'll kept to myself only.. But dunno why, out of sudden my hand easilly type..

I've fallen for someone. Haha.. How? Who? its undefined. At first, i try not to fall in love with anyone. Because, the least that i could do for the 1st year in USU is try to stabilize myself either in study nor my life. What could i do. I'm just a normal girl that have feelings. Still, i prefer to kept it to myself and have a control on my feelings. If i said, i'm not jealous when other girl approach him, that would be a lie. Honestly, my jealousy is beyond my capability. Time to time i manage to control. I love when he ask 'are u ok?' how r u doing?' although it is just short and simple ques, i appreciate it a lot. Coz the small things like that matter we ussually take 4 granted. Human tend to forget the small pieces of intimacy in life.

Everytime i'm praying, I would say 'jagalah hbgn baik antara kami'.. We as human could plan ahead, still Allah the one who decides. We could done our best, pray and tawakal~ Ya Allah, berikanlah hambamu kekuatan

~green-eyed~

2010-10-11T21:44:00.002+08:00

Hey there people who attached and not attached. Mr and Mrs. The one who loving and to be love.

Today i felt a little weird though. Have u felt that way before? It's like, you know something is not right, but

u can't detect what it is actually. Hurmm.. Neither do I. Well, first i have a confession to make!!!

Exam just around the corner and ussually this thing will came up during this period. Which is.. affection.

Yeah. Covetousness has engulf me. Why now??? I hate people who stalk my blog.. Please stop

it.. They ussualy will be named as silent reader. Hurmm...

Lately, seldomly i text with him. Seldomly we chat.. I din't mind at first. Sometimes, i'm tired of pretending i have no feelings towards him. Infact i do. Intimancy. BUt who am I to exagerate? And share the same feelings? It is major early for me. Rationally Yess. Haha..

I'm no one ecept with my name on Siti Filzah. Yeah. I'll be me all the time. I do feel

covetousness. I can't help it. Please make me calm at all time Allah.

Let it be.. Let it flow...

10.10.2010

2010-10-10T12:33:00.002+08:00

Hey there folks.. People who in loves. Individual who cares about their friendship than love. A person who appriciate their life and whoever in between them. Good morning. How u guys catch up with this world? Full of karma, and hectic? As the title has been type, what are so special about today? Or i could say about that date. Since almost everyone is excited about it. There is no doubt, today dates gonna be a history or momentos for those who will be husband and wife.. A couple.. Birthday nor any event that are related.

As for me? Today is the day that i could loosen up. As a dentistry student who studying abroad (indonesia). This is the only day i could pampered myself because today is the only day i don't have any classes. U bet!! its sunday!!

I've been wondering, day by day..Year by year.. had passed. Most of my favourite bloggers is not active. Which is, some of them has already close their account and some of them rarely post anything in their blog. Why?? ASk yourself.. There's no way the reason is 'i run out of ideas what to write'..Nahhh.. In our daily life, there's A LOT to share. So to every bloggers do update your blog.. +'+

This past few days, i feel downcast. The main reason is because there's a little misunderstanding going on between this lecturer and us. Uhhh just to think of it.. My blood burst to the max. Damn her!! Long came short, we have to score full marks in our exam in order to pass. HAhA... WTV... i don't care..

Everything that my beloved ones opinion or thoughts really could impact me A LOt. Like, "blaja elok2 jgn buat malu kami je.. anta blaja jauh2"

Arghhhhh.... pfft.....

Shoot!!!!!!! i was like...I feel want to die to know, to read that comment. Arghhh.. with just those words, i could be a different person. Gloomy.. Moody.. tired.. My mind easilly get tired if i stress bout this. At the end, i'm not continuing my revision. Instead i sleep. Yeah the most medcine that efficacious for me is by sleeping. I hate it.. Not be able to concentrate and do something worthwhilefor myself!! The exam is just around the corner. Hack i din't study anything at all.. Damn it!!!

Iwant ice cream!!!! really..really.. want it now!!

Still there's some people could make me ease. Altho just by chatting with them.. They are Amanina zawani and Badiu.. Yeahhhhhh.. Long live for u both.. A true friend.. Love u both..

May Allah give me strengh to deal with this matter..

~ AdvanCed~

2010-09-29T11:23:00.002+08:00

Good Afternoon men and women, boys and girls and anyone in between. How are u guys catching up with your lives? Still in good condition and full of vivacious in you?

Latterly, me and my housemate spent a lot of our freetime played futsal. It's fun+tiring+make our muscle cramp and sore. Hehe.. That is because within almost 7 month i haven't train my muscle in sports activity. The main thing make us so passionate bout futsal is.. PKPMI held futsal game on 17the Octtober 2010. We as junior batch 2010 ull of exuberant start practicing. Haha.. More! we bought futsal ball itself. UHuh... Albeit, not only futsal we played. On the contrary, we played badminton last 2 night. WOW!! frankly speaking I've never went out at night for amusement. Plus arrived at our house around 11 ++pm... Ahah... Thanks to our senior Badiu who inform us bout any activity they having.. Thumbs up!!

The thing that bothers me is. We the FKG will be sitting our examination on 17th October 2010. Thus, I'm dilemma whether i'm gonna join the team or not.. Uhuh..

Like always i have tones of other things to share with.. Expecially bout the 4 letter word.. L.O.V.E..... Somehow i;m not in the mood to do so.. DON't know why. LAtely i felt tired. Arghhhh... please laziness shuh2.. go away from my life. I can't afford of the consequences being lazy. MAma i'm sorry. Virus of laziness slowly injected my spirit.
Allah please make me strong and exuberant like i use to. Amin..

~ConFession~

2010-09-24T23:07:00.002+08:00

Hello there boys and girls, man and woman. and everyone in between.(sounds familiar?) How are you people holding up for your lives?(familiar also). Its Friday, 24th September 2010. The weather is piece of mind yet its drenched. Yeah.. Its been a while since i update my blog. Sorry folks.. Day by day.. I have lots of things to write on but time is envied... Heeee... Enough ofthe entry...

As the title had been decided.. So i've hav a few things to confess.(sounds serious)
Life in Medan as always parched and full of obstacle. It's not easy to live in other people country expecially in Indonesia. To justify of what i've said, as all residents in Malaysia known alredy. We (Malaysian and Indonesian) have crisis. Well that's the beuty of living in others land yeah. I have to get use to walk under the rain nor under the hot sun yeah. Last 2 days. The beca i ride.. The tyre run flat. Ahaa.. in middle of raining. Thus we have to pay the Pak Beca still. Extra somemore from what we've agreed before. Because of we have empathism. Yeah.. No never know what other things could happen to you.

1st year aim is.. to apply and own a scholarship. So that i wouldn't burden my beloved ones. Im sorry to my family expecially my dearest mom who willing 2 sacrifice just to make sure i could further my study in dentist. I owe u a lot. A LOT... infinity... I miss my family genuinely trully.

I have this idea. Always twinglling in side my head.. Heee... I wish to buy nor have a property. Such, land and house. Albeits, the price of houses nowdays gradually increase. Yeah.. I don;t know weather i have the money to buy a house for my own. Yeah....

Life as always.. Has its own unrevealed mysterious path. We as a normal human being. We never know's what is waiting for us ahead. Like people said, 'we could plan everything nicely and organisely still Allah who decides which is which." Personally, love is undefined. You never know weather his the right one foru or not. So, i'm choosing let it be. Just follow the flow. No forcing nor rushing....

Love my life... Appriciate my life.. Just 5 years more.. Than InsyaAllah.. I'll achive my goal in life when i'm 25 years old. No one know's what people dreamt off...

Its late though.. Although i have blass of ideas 2 share with. Still InsyaAllah.. we still have 2moro.
Hold on tigh folks.. to ride a roller costerand went through all the dirts before you reach your own destination.
Have a blass day...

epilogue..

2010-08-18T20:39:00.002+08:00

Hey there folks, girls and boys, attached or not attached, loving or hatred.. to all of u. Welcome to my epilogue. When i'm at Indonesia for the 1st weeks. I always said to myself that if i have a broadband, i will update my blog frequently. In contrast, it doesn't happened at all. currently i have my own broadband. Thus, it shouldn't be a problem to online. Maybe because of my lazziness nor busy studying i hardly find the time to networking. Hurmmm... Well enough for the blog entry i perhaps.

This is the fasting month to all Muslims. May Allah bless us for what we're doing. And the thing that we're going to do for the future. Next week is my test. Which, it is on next friday. For this month all FKG(fakultas kedokteran gigi) batch 2010 learn bout the basis of being a dentist. The subject are, agama, kewarganegaraan, kebudayaan. Basicly we've learn bout the Indonesia history and culture. Yeah.. trust me, it's freakin bored!!!! But for better or worst i do have 2 concentrate to those lecture though. Just imagine, within 3 days we'd finished our agama lesson. WOhhhh.. I was like.. Dude!! i have to study this thick book within 2 weeks only due to the upcoming test. Likewise, there;re still other two subject that i have to study within 1 week!!! Just imagine that!!!!. It is totally nightmare if i don't have any clue what are the answer for the test.. Urghhhh...
In indonesia, we still have class on saturday. Our rest day is only on Sunday. hurmm.. Thus, for malaysian students do appreciate ur saturday.

I met a few seniors that very mischieves. yeah.. They were like gave all the tips to live in Medan. To master our subject. It's very enjoying to hear from Malaysian seniors. Her name is Faimah, 4th year student. Talkative. Cute. Sweet. Exuberant.
Another senior is Tuan Muhammad badiuzzaman. his name is long!!!! He's like a guidance. His physical appearence is cool that most of the girls dream off. But the inner part of him. Makes me respect him all at once. In otehr words, full of sifat-sifat mahmudah . yeah.. There's a lot words to describe his character. But let it be..

My mom, she's at home recovering. She's fine.. Just have to take note on what she's taking for her meal. My beloved sister, is currently in her exams week. Best of luck to her. My papa busy taking care of my mom and still go for work as well. HOHO.. when the guy get married. prepare for all this!! Full of responsible as a husband and dad.

I wish i have something to write bout my foster dad. But i really don't have a clue to write on.

that's all from me i guess. Have to continue study. Pray for my success my friends. Bon Voyage..

what a day

2010-08-12T22:53:00.003+08:00

It's the second day of fasting month. I hope it's still not late for me to wish all of u happy fasting month.. May this year and upon it Allah will bless us. Amin...

2nd day of fasting month., I'm not allowed to fasting due to mentrual. 1 hour before break fasting, that the only time i know. How unlucky i am. Haha.. Otherwise i would be able to eat something. Oppss..

Today. The day that everything happened so fast. I couldn't even know is it today or yesterday the yhing that happened to me myself.

Let me introduce to all of u how does the system work in Universitas sumatera Utara (USU). FKG( dentistry) The new system were used since last year which is 2009.
heregoes. It's called block system. As if, we have 2 study 1 subject only throughout this whole month. After 3 weeks, we have to sit for an examination for the whole topic we'd learn. 1 thick book we have memorize all the surah2 and hukum2..
woooshhh... 2 weeks left then for me 2 study.

This morning.
I were placed in group 8 in agama lecture. Thus, we are the last group to present the last topic of agama. Which is Kedokteran gigi. Plus, In USU everything is BI( bahasa Indonesia). Presentation. Tutor and etc..

YES!!! the Indonesian felt it's funny and we sounds so weird when spoke their language. Who cares.. My 1st impression towards the Indonesian student is exuberant. They full of thoughts+ opinion+question. i amazed.. I respect that!! They will ask any question although aminny tiny question. for us it is not an important. But they have their own voice!!!

THIS EVENING!!
As it written at the top of this post. I cant fasting. still i followed my housemate to ramadhan fare. According to ain( 1 of my hsemate) there's a near ramadhan fare just around the corner. Thus, with full of confident. I only bring 20K rupiah, luckily. If not, i'm thinking just to bring 15K. haha...
For 15 mins we walk through the dirty road. We found nothing at all ramadhan fare. Then she started to ask mr beca to took us to the remadhan fare. Without planning or knowing where we going. all of us jump into the beca. Long story came short. It's freaking far from our house. Else, i didnt bring any identification card and my hp. GREAT!!!
We arrived at the destiny IStana Maimon ( ramadhan fare). Then we decide to go to Medeka walk caused at that time it's raining cats and dogs. Hurmmm... arrived, my meal cost me Rp 20 300. Haha,.. even my friend have to lend her money to pay my meal. we went back by taxi. Without any cash with me. In 1 taxi 8people.. Nice right.. The thing that i want 2 share is that. It is an experienced to eassily get lost with short of cash with u. At night. all girls. raining cats and dogs. The road flooded. Hi 5 girlss.. we are save.

Just now, i've been inform that my mom will undergo minor operation. To remove her bile duct. I'm sure it is cost way much expensive. I didn;t ask forsure. I'm hoping everything will go smoothly and nothing ba dwould happen to my dear mom. Love u Mom.. u are everything for me.. and our family.

Till then from me folks..

u never know..

2010-08-04T17:58:00.002+08:00

Continuing our entry. In Indonesia it's 1 hour late then Malaysia. Thankful that i manage to recall back which shop she went. We walk about 1 km ahead after the 'beca' drop us at one place.
Yeah.. I have to ride 'beca' to go anywhere that is not in walking distance. My house is not in USU but near USU lol. Thus i have to ride beca or 'angkut'~ its like a van though the angkut. It cost me Rp 2000=Rm0.40. Beca Rp 7000=Rm0.65

I'm able to online easily caused i'm in Sun Plaza shopping centre. Plus we're ate at Mr. Pancake they provide free wifi. That's the best!!!!
I will go back for Lebaran which maybe on the 6th or 8th sept. Nevertheless, i have to apply again my Visa. That would be very troublesome for me plus in Lebaran.
I'm overwhelming when Fara aimira offered to post some money. Hahaha.. don't worry guys i'm still healthy as always infact i eat quite frequent than i'm in Msia. hahhah.. I love u girls laa...

Khairul hanif.. still in love...........
i was like wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! that is so long man.
like I said u never know when someone love you deeply and sincerely. 3 years is not a short time though. Yeah... i respect him for that. plus i give respect to him caused he bought his own gadget. woot..woot..

Love triangle. How it feel??
I wonder how.. hurmmm.. U can't blame yourself if you're in that position. True or false?
i've been in that position???

Till then..
love and kisses to my family and my besties.

i'm here

2010-08-04T13:01:00.001+08:00

Hey peeps.. As always, it's been a while. I'm here. which is Medan, Indonesia. I haven't start my class yet. All dentistry classes would be start on next monday. All of us ( international) student having hard time when it comes to medical check up and registration. Because here, most of the people lack of disciplined. SERIOUSLY!!!! like pfft....they cut queue. Pushing.. they raised their voices when they told us how the system work at there. They didn't respect to each other.. Fuhhh.. I could list all the bad or worse thing happen in here till night i guess.. But the heck. New environment, new place, i'm new in this country. In order to go in the bright side u'll have to face the darker side first yeah. 'before u walk at dawn. u have 2 go through the night first"

The weather is almost the same as Malaysia. In contrast, the air pollution is 100% worse then Malaysia. The traffic is better then vietnam ( for those who have been in Vietnam) but less develope like Malaysia. Honestly, when u at different country, u'll start comparing ur beloved country and the country u'd stayed. Frankly speaking, Malaysia is the best country ever. U could find so much food~ Arabians, western. asia, japan~ all of these easily get in Malaysia.

I'm not regret of choosing this path. Absolutely!!!! Just have 2 adjust here and there and study. I'll be fine. Right now, i'm trying not to compare and complaint. It"ll effect ur mind and (semangat) ahhahha...

I'm staying in double story house, It felt like i'm staying in bungalow. Yeah. RM 3000 yaw! one year. Expensive yaw... Plus, it doesn't provide us free wifi!!! darn!!! So i guess i'm gonna buy broadband though. We( my housemate) hae to pay Rm 1100 just to get the line. Then we have to pay per montly the wifi. IF WE WANT THAT TO HAPPEN. I was like h**l no!!!

In a good way, the things is quite cheap around here. Hrmmmm...
I'm having difficulty in drop a cmmnt to some of my friend blog. So, i'm sorry guys. I do not know i cant. Because of wifi or what.. huh.. Before this i never have a hard time in online because ussualy I use my house streamix. Damn fast!! No need to wait. Well just have to adjust myself. I'm not gonna die just because of the small things.

Currently, i only take a real meal on the evening. Breakfast~oat. Noon~ usually didn't take anything or just a biscuits. Evening~ noodles or rice. Night~ it depends.
I really have to saving meanwhile to wait for my acc no.

i wanna write more. But have go somewhere else. Help my friend to find her original certs in fotostat shop... crazy rite!!!! till thn..

Inception..Journey

2010-07-24T00:44:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, went to Indonesia ambessy-KLCC-KTM (ride it by my own, alone). I went to the Indonesia Ambessy to make my visa. Yeah coz i'll be staying there for years right. Thus, i really need it to ensure that i'm not an immigrants!!! that is totally correct fellas. I'm going to depart from Malaysia LCCT at 12.50 noon. Next wednesday.

So, after half way done the Visa( halfway coz i need to come back at the Indonesia ambessy at 4 pm that day). Then, since i have a date with the handsome perfect E0S, it's a camera belong to Hanif.. I then take a cab to Klcc. Arrived at 11.05 am. Yeah that early. To watched INCEPTION!!!!!!! yeah... Well, my plan is abit altered because of one of my new friend followed along. The reason is she do not have any idea how to go back. So I as always lend a hand. Most of the time I chat with her. still i manage to chat with him in the movie. Due to my slow brain to interpret what actually is going on the scene.

Leonardo dicaprio's stay dashing as always. He seems never get old, wrinkle. Nothing.

Christopher Nolan his the writer, director that so genius. I've never seen this kind of movie. It's so amaze me. The idea of how dreams can change everything. Dream in a dream. Inception meaning start or beginning. Then Cobb- leonardo Dicaprio's try to the max level. dream in a dream by level 5. Wow huh..

After the movie ended, It still make me think at the end of the story, Is he in dreaming? And my head is a bit not in straight. Yeah..

After the movie, he went to his praying. Me and her going back 2 Indonesia Ambessy to collect our Visa. Unfortunately, we're in hurry so we just keep asking the cab driver how much it cost us to the Indonesia ambessy.

Cab driver 1: it cost rm 15. This the cheepest u could get coz the way to that place is jamn. If u choose cab behind u. U might get rm 30. So how?

me: Argh!! no way. the journey took us less than 5 min plus if u follow the meter it is less than rm5! ( which i said it in my mind only)

cab driver 2: rm 10. u want to??

me: huh.. we're in hurry so just gamble. fine rm 10.

Then after 100% finished bout the visa. I sent my friend to the ktm 1st since she in rushing and i'l be going home a lil late. Considering i actually haven't spent and chat with him and play with EoS. Then after asar praying we went to A&W. He ate his meal. I play his camera. Plus when the moment i touched the long lenses. It's our moment togather.. ( background sound-taraaaa...) Exagerate! The lens, the body. So perfect!!

Then i try some shot indoor. But he said it's not enough light though. Thereupon, we went to the park shot some picture. It was so nice and perfect if he didnt laught at my shot!!! So, i just enjoy the snery and the nice weather!! I learn 1 new thing. penning. I guess the spelling is correct. yeah i was planning to do that on a train or ktm om the way back home. But change of plan. I have to stop at wangsa maju which is opposite train with hanif. Thus i didn't have the chance to try that technique!!!

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... I'll be missing the whole thing. Left few days only.. Huhhu.. Bye Eos.. bye hanif.. Aman, Wida, Fara, nazrin9who willing come all the way back from Penang just 2 hang out with me n other today), Afiq, Ifan!! appriciate that guys.. I loveb all of u so much!!!!

Vanish

2010-07-21T00:49:00.003+08:00

As the title written. I'm gona vanish from Malaysia about 1 week left. Caused i'm going 2 study abroad which is Indonesia. Course: dentistry
And the best part is i just told my bestfriend that i'm going to Indonesia next wednesday.
Fara is piss off caused according to her i tried to keep this away from her and the others. I admit there. i do try to hide from u guys. My beloved one.

1) i do not know how to tell u guys

2)i wonder how u guys will respond

3) i just totally afraid if anything would go wrong.

i'm sorry for those who i'd hurt their feelings. I love u guys and girls so much ( Amanina, fara aimira, wahida, anip, nazrin,ifan)
Well i havent tell wahida, ifan, afiq bout this though. Yeah. And today, Aman find out through nazrin i think that i'll be going. For sure she's sad caused i'm her bestfriend. Didn't tell her either.

To day also i receive a lot. Let me repeat a Lot calls from my beloved ones, Mashi, Logesh, nazrin mizan.
~ logesh " is my friend from my kasturi tuition. He is Indian. Study at Uniten. The place that my sis currently study right now. His taking Electronic engineering. He is a fun young man. Fluently speaks malay without any slang. I miss him so much!! i mean so much!!!!

~ Mizan: known him from fb. Well his study medcine in zagazig. In holiday. Thought meeting him.

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1.26am-The plan for this morning is drive my mom to her work. Me and anip will go Bsn to withdraw some cash. Then to PKNS to renew my passport then we gona watch movie. Which is INCEPTION. He's the one who choose it . THen chit chat and hang out. Well i do the driving he just should give me company. Caused my mom didnt trust me drving alone. So i Figure out that khairul hanif is free, Why not.

In contrast, the other way around. Looks like my relatives held to our place and sleep here this noon. So, me again have to be at home. Waiting for them. I was so pissed off.. Caused i've been saving my outing day 2 wnet out with my friends and chill out before i hit the road or rather 'the air'. So we pospone( i do not know how to spell it right) to watch movie on thurds. Hope it'll went well..

I'm so tired... need a long nap. night then...............

THE day

2010-07-15T00:11:00.002+08:00

Hey there peeps. Sorry for took a long 'nap'( didn;t update my blog for a while). Well, it's not because i'm busy or whatsoever. Just didn't have the mood to write. Ok then enough for the excuses. Let's get to the main topic here.

THE day is refering to the day i went out with one of my best buddy Khairul Hanif last thursday. Just to watched Eclipse. We could skip about the Eclipse epic story yeah. To make this story become short but full of the main idea. Here goes....

I'd been informed that i could further my study in Dentistry field for 5 years. In Universiti Sumatera Utara,Medan, Indonesia. Thanks so much i've nail the entrance examination. Howbeit, i was offered medcine instate of dentistry coz my marks is better qualified for medcine i gues. Still, i choose dentistry. The person incharge said i could change my course 2 dentistry if i want too.

Evey joy has to come with the misery package. WHich is, i have to pay by myself for the 1st year study fee and the accomodation and etc. So, my mom paid the amount by herself. Well with my beloved Papa also contribute some amount of money. But My real dad, didnt contribute anythg. Even cloth and other things. Huh.. hate talk about him though. Even so, the money have to paid is freakin large amount. Fuhhhhhhhhhhhh... I owe my mom alot.
So my goal is:

1) Get 3.5 for my 1st year xm.

2) Study till i puke

3) KuatkN SEMANGAT

4) keep in touch with my dear frined.

i'm getting sleepy lol.. it's 1.47 am. well another day fellas...

test..

2010-06-28T18:06:00.002+08:00

hey.. it's been a while. so currently i'm preparing myself to the entrance examination of University Sumatera Utara. Yeah.. I just get the past year paper though which is today.

The question is mostly topic that i've learn from matriculation.

And i'd get help from hanif,aman, nabil..

Mostly nabil help me out in math..

His really good in math. Or i could say chemist also..

And yeah, Danial called me yesterday. We just chit chat and all.

Acap came 2 my hse 2day. My cousins and my sister were at home. He just stop by just to say hello and chit chat for a while. He want to show his new hemet.. Yeah/..

The thing is, He will drop by whenever he bought a new thing for his bike. And i'm the one who know's it..

hahah.... till then.. have 2 study ..

money..

2010-06-13T22:54:00.002+08:00

Halo..Halo...
It's been long period though i haven't update my blog. Yeah..
Well.. a lot of things had happen through out this time..

~ My mom get herself into hospital. She has gallstone in her bile.
~ Thus, it caused severe pain at her abdomen.
~ She have to undergo minor operation though. But she refuse to receive the treatment.
~ coz she want me to settle down with my U.. To make sure money is enough for me to further my study.
~ wow!! right!! that's a mother.. loving.. soft hearted.. willing to sacrifice anything just to make sure everything that planned.. is going well..

I do love to further my studies in dentistry though. love it..
But the only chance to grab that opportunity is by register myself in global medic network.
yup..
it is expensive though.
1st sem i have to use my own fund.. i mean money.. that's a lot of money need though..
this is what burden me..
can i have it?? or just take the courses that i've been offered i the UPU. huh..
The result of UPU hasn't out yet.. still.. it burden's me..

If i have money.. if i have that.. My mom shouldn't be worry bout me and her health..
She could receive the treatment without hesitate...

ARGHHH....

let the time tells...

wondering...

2010-05-26T22:05:00.002+08:00

The facilitator planed a trip to genting though end of june.
And i do not whether 2 join or not..
2moro going 2 alamanda with my sweet friends..
Going 2 watch Prince of Persia.

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I wonder.. If i reach my life til 40's..
How much dinner do i have 2 make for my family,
How can i eat the same thing year by year.
Human always doesn't satisfied what they have,
what they earn,
Life could be interesting,
If we know how to colour it right,
How to embrace our life..
regardless how hard our life,
How much encumbrance we had..
it will flow the right way.. like we want..
Love my friend.. my life..

Till then..

KMS

2010-05-25T16:42:00.002+08:00

Well, KMS stands for (Kolej Matrikulasi Kedah)..
I was one of the facilitator 2 the new students, 1st batch of KMS.. Yeah..
!st batch. I'm so honoured 2 b the 1st faci.
It was tremendous proicient for me..

***************

Well i wouldn't say, it was held in organize way though.
Coz we are not enough manpower with us,
Our commander is Megat ahmad Danial B. Mazalan.
yeah.. his the type of always go on although we have some obstacle.
He know how to do the talk..
He is truthful.. especially with the lecturer..
enough of him..

****************

and yeah.. i learn how 2 handle D90.. cool huh.. its fun though learn with Sir Wahidi..
I learn so much.. boutbhow 2 search for the right angle.
I could handle 300 students..
Well beause of i'm the assistant of the Vega block..
I made o lot of new friend..
Yeah from all over malaysia. hehe
And there's student get my no.!!

Till then,
Going 2 hit the shower here..

just in mind

2010-05-04T17:57:00.002+08:00

It's 3.30a.m I woke up suddently. Do not know why. Well apparently the mosquito that suck my blood bring me to reality from my deep slumber. Yes! I killed 6 mosquitoes though. Despite the weather is dreadfully hot and dry the whole day. I'm soak with sweat when i woke up.

I wonder, it seems the world have come to its end. On account of the pollution occured through out this whole world. It then trigger global warming, the ice at north and south pole starts to melts extremely in alarming rate. We should preserved the Earth. Love green. I wish i have an air conditioner though.

its called something...

2010-04-26T01:12:00.002+08:00

Dear bloggie, it's been awhile right now. I've read my dearest friend post, i trully love what he wrote." when u love someone,even if they dont accept u,a small piece of ur heart will always be with them even when theyre gone."

It is absolutely true. Me myself having a difficulty to forget 100% my sweet memories with him. Yeah. Whenever i look in his page, It hurts.. seen him happily with his partner. That's me.. It tooks time to forget. But still, how fast i ran, how calm i am, how long it takes me to forget all the memories.. Still and all, atleast a piece from the memories will remain inside me myself.

I could conclude this one important thing in our life. All OF us

know life is like a ferris wheel, we cant control our position, Whether

at the top or at the bottom. Howbeit, it's our fate. To find a life partner is very hard. You have to accept the goods and the bads of yiur parner without any whinning nor affliction. To find the one, you sure have been through some serious relationship. Every journey we took, there's always a new relationship created without been plan. Every relationship we going through have their own story to tell. Yeah..........
being love n fall in love with someone is hard. To trust someone 100% is arduous.

Right now, appreciate what you have. Appriciate every single moment you have with the loves one.................Every journey, it tells its own story. Full of sweet n bitterness. Thats life.

1 year.........

2010-04-25T13:53:00.002+08:00

One year had just fly by. I already finished my matriculation programe 2 weeks ago. Somehow, this laziness of me engulf, made me hard to write anything in my blog. Sorry. It's my weakness. I could write a whole page long of my experience been a matrics student. But i'm not in the mood of it.

So maybe later..

one time

2010-03-05T13:27:00.002+08:00

Dear bloggie, i haven't write anything lately.. Not because i don't have anythig to story about. just don't have the time to do that.

I'm very sorry for aman. Takziah foe her and her family. Her dad just passed away 3 days ago. That is the reason why i came back to Selangor. Just to see her and to comfort her.

My exams just around the corner. i'm so cuak right now. I really want to study right now, while waiting for acap finished his jumaat prayer. But i can't focus.. To much to think of.. Man life is always complicated.

Well, 1 week before, me,fiqa,alwani and zira hang out with nazrin and his friends. Yeah it's so freakin fun n full of enthusiasm. I went there to buy someone's birthday present. Someone special. Yeah... I bought topman and from somerset bay for my beloved sis nana!!!

Well, i never fell in love deeply before.. But now we are just friend. It is toturing but i'd could accept it. My priority now is study .... study.... and get myself into U and the course i wanted to. Life must go on.. I just hate when i'm alone, then i'll start to think about the unnessasary thing. I hate when i'm expecting a text or call from him. I hate this feelings so much.

2 day to go i'm alone in this house. I want to study with u guys!!!! waaa.... Never mind, anything for aman. I'll sacrifice..

LOVE my honeybee friends at kmk and my bff.

undefined....

2010-01-28T23:38:00.003+08:00

Dear bloggie, as writen on the title my feelings right now is undefined. Don't know how to describe it by words.. Do not know.. whether i'm mad, full of despair, exuberant,tired of lies,................

Why almost all men out there is caring and sweet talker. If they always.................. hurmm.. my mind can't translate the informations or thoughts...

Hanif, i do agree... this feelings make me hyperventilate. Relationships is hard. Its like breathing with no oxygen supply. Yeah.. I hate this feelings. It's torturing!!! It's not fun having this kind of feeling you see.

eNlightenment..

2010-01-21T20:41:00.002+08:00

Dear bloggie..
I couldn't illustrate what i'm thinking right now. As if, I want to write all the thoughts in my head at one time. Let us follow the hierarchy..

About my real dad:
Hurmm.. His physically just like me except he his a man in his late 44th. I could say he his now a very successful man, husband, father. Yeah.. although i never stay with him ever within 19 years.. Well what the hack. I didn't mind at all coz i have my loving stepfather!!! I stay with my mom and him since i was 3 years old.. yeah..

So, he his (real dad) ..

1. Before this he has problem control his anger, couldn't manage his own life.

2. He has been cheated. In a lot of ways.. business.. in personal life..

3. He really have his ups and downs. Years ago..

4. He work hard to gain this position.

5. He extreme dislike wasting. Food expecially.

6. He earn Brabus! It cost like 1 big banglo i think.

7. He has his own company!!

8. He has everythg right now. A happy family..

Thus, conclusion is...
every single person will change from worst to good, Good 2 better, Better 2 great!
But still every person in this world could change from great to worst. Believe me there is.
Infact,
My perspectives now has change towards the people who easily out going and hang out types. Just to let u know, most of the people who doing the bad and unmoral thing is the goos and innocent face. Yeah so snap out if it.. don't judge a book by its cover. Don't be fool around. get to know him or his more first.

Life do complicated..
life doesn't always go how u planned it is..
Life is short.. enjoy yourself but draw the line.. do not exceeds the line.

Relationship is totally complicated..
You do not know who's the one for you..
You do not know what will went wrong or right in the future..
You do not know if u choose the wrong person..
The only thing that u could do is.....
Let the times tell,
let it flow through you..
Let it be..

p/s; Do appreciate all people around you.. Do love them as much they love you.

Genting trip...

2010-01-19T02:00:00.004+08:00

arrive at the Awana hotel

we ain't ride that..

4D place

Shoot by emal with the big camera

we're in reindeer cruiser

At skyway station

Floating huh..

1st day in indoor games

Excitation face 0+0

dear bloggie,

we went to genting last thursday n friday. It went well and trully enjoying.. let the pictures tell you the journey and the story. 2days 1 night. RM 44.30 outdoor theme park+skyway ride up and down+bus. Rm159 1 night per room. We ate Tuna, sardin, bread. My family bought cake for our friend birthday paan. Fiqa bought cake for him oso, secrets recipe u noe.

later...

an eye opener..

2010-01-18T23:44:00.003+08:00

Dear bloggie,

I do not know why i feel so suffocated... life is unpredictable.. u cant control yourself.... obviously im being despair here... do not know why..do not know what is the reasons behind this. Really.. I just find out and conceive that we could not be the person we want to be. i mean not being ourself just to make other people happy.I try to done that, it felt like i'm living in a lie. Yeah it felt in a cage. There's no oxygen supply. I can't spread my wings flape through the blue sky. it really felt nice if u an eagle. U own the sky!!!!

I love being me.. myself.. siti filzah.. warmth heart loving person.. its me.. just me and my lovers.. when i use my sis account for FB. I add my kmk peeps. I found that they really like to 'broadcast' their daily lifestyle and their loving story to public. For me it is dangerous to let other people know on what your doing and with who.. It is just not right using your Fb just for that reasons. They should do something relevan bout the technologies provided.(i sound really melancholy). I am...

new ifo

Did u guys know that sugar is one of the main source(sumber utama), so it is trully valueable now. Since we short off sugar. So There are other alternative producing sugar which is from stevia ( a herb). Wake up we are running of sugar, that is why the market price has increased.

other thing..

Why are guys like 2 be a casanova or pretend to be a nice and gentleman.. toward the girls. And pretend they are single but THEY ARE REALLY NOT!! I hate lies.. i hate made up story. i hate to be the person who show my sympathy toward the people who shouldn't deserves one..

Ok i need to do my notes.. later..

yesterday.....

2010-01-12T17:30:00.002+08:00

Dear bloggie, So yesterday... It was fun.. aman join us skating. Guess what she hurt her buts.. ngeee... I'm not supposed 2 help her get up coz she waiting for this cute and gentleman 'abg' to help her out.. Honestly, i also felt like want to fell off my buts..ngee... But seriously he is really cute and does have a nice smooth move.

The people who came is aman(mybff), fiqa,ieqmal,farhan,fiza,rin.... Yeah and there's 1 guy i duuno his name coz he is fiqa's senior..

So, i and aman went for widow shopping. We found this kardigen?? ( i do not know what it called) It is eye catching and cost Rm60. For us it is way too expensive though.

I cant upload any pictures!!!!!! i think my camera memory card had been infected by virus.. wawawawa......

my pLan iS.....

2010-01-10T00:22:00.002+08:00

Dear bloggie, me and my kmk peeps will hang out at pyramid doing ice skating and other stuff.. Yeah other stuff on this monday..!!!!! i'm so freaking excited bout it... And on this thurds and fri we will be going 2 genting!!!!!! My family will be following us.. coz they help us book the hotel and all...

I am so going 2 enjoy my hols!!!! yeepy... but cant wait 2 hang out with hanif and aman... l.O.V.E uguys.........

i don't kNow wHy....

2010-01-09T21:44:00.002+08:00

Dear blogggie, why why why why we cant having a normal relationship?? just like boys and girlfriend.. hving fun and enjoy our teenage life.. It is so hard to stay single without affect other people feelings... it is so hard..

Well apparantly my dear friend Danial ask me the question to me.. Tonight on 9/1/10... i have to say no.. there it started.. i hurt his feelings.. and now he didnt reply my text.. great..

this is for you..
genuine to you..

Life is like a farris wheel...
full of ups and down..
full of colour...
full of passion...
full of love inside it...
But there's still sweet sour of it...
strong taste of sweet, sour, bitterness...
It is not simple and easy as u think....
Not always run smoothly as u plan...

love is undefined...
u think its sweet..
still there are sourness inside it...
u'll never know what awaits u ahead..
u can't predict the future...
u'll never know who ur partner would be...
everything is possible...

Thus.. for above reasons...
i couldn't make up my mind...

it's HoLs tIme!!!!

2010-01-08T22:43:00.002+08:00

hey.. hey..
I'm back!!!! I'M back for 2 weeks.. Thank god.. i could least rest after the exams..
A lot of things going on.. I haven't have the time to blog out..

Let me start 2 weeks be4 our UPS examination. Well OBviously every single person is busy revising and finishing up their assingment.. So at that night i was in my friend room (fiqa). We were busy revising.. Than on 11.30pm suddenly we heard sum1 screaming 'kebakaran.. kebakaran..' For a second i thought its true. But then there are a few girls said it's just a fire drill training session. So me, fiqa, ziera,alwani..we were blabbering.. ' hesy nak wat benda nie nie mlm 2 buta.. da la esk schedule full.. hesy ntah pape ntah..'

So, we went down to the gathering place of block B residents. And i just realize i'm from block C residents. Then i ran to my gathering place.. Well i was caught up by warden.. Damn.. I have 2 explain and apologized. Fine..fine.. don't care at all..

So after the checking up all the residents attendants. Allof us are force to 2 dataran. Long story came short: We saw a shower meteor, than 1 girl suddenly starts 2 screaming.. And then the fire fighter, ustaz, and a few boys including Idris stats to AZAN and recite ayat kursi and other surah.. But then things are going out of control. coz this things is spreading rapidly throughout the girls. We we're ask to go to masjid.untill 1.30 am the THING won't stop. For those who wasn't infected we're ask to go 2 our room ad recite surah Yassin. b4 we went 2 bed.

Nasib baik i'm not 1 of the infected girl. So we we're ask to went back by group. We did.. Thus, i have 2 take all mystuff n books the next morning at fiqa's room. All of us tried not to talk about that. Jangan Tegur la katekan..
For the rest of that week. we are forbiden to go out of our block after Maghrib. and right now things went well..

chiow2..

its the time....

2009-11-06T00:59:00.003+08:00

i'm to exhausted to write anything.... later i think.. i'll write.. daaa

iths my birthday card from my family..

happy 18th bday

his my beloved papa.. papa bought me a watch!!!

there's me n ,y sis.. n i wear my new watch

haha.. what kind of pose is this..

it's my birthday cake!!!!!!! love it

Today........

2009-11-05T00:08:00.002+08:00

Well today.. we borrowed abg long cars to go The mines at Bangi.. To fid some stuff... It's so cool to go out shopping with my beloved sis.. So we went to find Our cousin's birthday present he is 8 years old now.. And i couldn't find anything to give to Nazrin.. I already got for hanif though.. But to find one for naz is tough.. ahhhhh.... i couldn't force my eyelid to open anymore.. i got to go to sleep... yeah!!!! daaa.. enjoy the pix

The Host. is one of stephanie meyer novel.. i haven't read yet .. still any novel that is written by her i would love to read though.. It cost RM37.90..

i bought this shoe... with my own money. waa..

and my sis bought her so call hiking shoe.. She's going to hiking to Gunung (i don't know what its call) but in Genting..

we shopping together at The mines..

ThiS tUesDay......

2009-11-04T22:52:00.004+08:00

Well me n my sis had dinner with our dad and our siblings.. so I set the venue which is Piza UNo.. This is trully because of i really want to devour carbonara fettuccini. YUMMY........... it waS SO SENSATIONAL.... so here are some of the picture..

This is my real dad family..

Anyone want a juices??

this is it.. All my dad sons n daughter.. 1 missing, which is Fahman.

Fudail & Fauzan eat dessert

We are at Pizza Uno.. nana, Fauzan, me

So here's my dad n auntie Azza

Still snapping while wait for the cuisine

He's really talkative though..

He likes to pose

it's shaking a bit

My lovely sis!!!!!! she's back...

That's right kiddo.. Piza Uno!! is the best..

Is it the price u smiling about...

MoNdaysssss..

2009-11-04T21:47:00.004+08:00

it'll be nice if the tag is off...

that's me.. resting my feet..

pyramid toilets is awesome!!!

we do love chicken rice.. it's our landmark.. for our group

we waiting for the food!!!

It's my lovely BFF's!!!!

I went to Sunway Pyramid with aman.. Well it supposed to be, we're going to join with my matrics peeps and have fun. But suddenly my peeps cancle the last min of time.. so me and aman still proceed what had we planned.. we go to sunway breakfast .. chicken rice.. hang around.. watched movie, Jennifer's body.. bought some stuff.. n went back..

outInG wIt mY LovElY..

2009-11-01T22:36:00.005+08:00

we have the super cool cute friendship..

we are the real group.. halp of us is busy studying(fara), fever(haqim), hafiz( hols with family),Wida( at kulim studying)............

okie.. it is so obvious!! my skin is tanner than aman!! not fair.. this is because KMK.. waa.....

hurmmm.. actually aman suppose be inthat pic.. but she stood behind me.. so it's just me n afiq..

So here it is.. ifan+adila.......aman+wafi....... afiq=me............ lame!!!

Dear bloggie, yesterday we went out.. WE (me,aman,afiq,irfaan,wafi bulan, adila).. so let see.. ifan+dila..aman+wafi.. Me=afiq...

me n afiq don't know what to look.. so we just stared to the sweet couple.. yeah.. we kind the lost that day.. haha.. pity us.. not surround by the love cloud..=''=

Why mid valley?? coz this is all Ifan idea!!!!!! Which caused me n aman became a sandwiches in ktm. From kl central to mid.. thank god that it is only 1 station a head.. The gross=heinous thing is, my body stick like glu with other male.. OMG it is so disgusting.. my bdn melekap wit his!!!

Sorry aman.. This is your 1st time took KTM without your family help.. And u are force into a sardin tin.. sorry dear.. Its not my idea to go 2 mid.

What the hack, we surely did had fun right!!!!!!! we watched meat balls.. it's quite fun and thrill. Just look at the giant cheese.. ice cream.. baggle..spaghetti.. YUMYUM... i felt hungry just after watched that movie.. hehe.. i did ate a lot that day.. well.. ate patayya fried rice, mushroom burger from the BK. pretzel from aunt annie..

wafi n aman!!!

afiq also came.. we r actually at the food court

okie, this is the person that came that day.. n ofcourse ME!!as always, i'm the photographer.. pity me.. my pic only a few lol..

well, fara, wida, haqim , hafiz didnt come though.. so here are the sweetiest..

are we twins or something?? hurmm i do look alike though..

Me n aman bought a pair of flip flop just because, it rained cats n dogs when the ktm arrived at the subang jaya station. so we need to cross over from the ktm station to care4 which is the nearest pit stop.. so we run n.. yeah we did get wet.. but it such a great experience though.. like naz said, experienced is the est teacher i this world..

mom's out...

2009-10-23T21:55:00.002+08:00

She's out from HUKM though.. Nothing serious.. she often have ceacum ache..Ceacum is the part of middle small intestine..

Actually we'd plan to watch POPADOM.. Its a movie ofcourse.... But looks like all of us.. exhausted.. So 2morrow for the movie..

new moon on air's is on 26 nov!!!!!!!! Watch out twilight fans!!! get ready to buckle up your seatbelt and scream!!!! to be able to watch the pack and their sic packs!!!!! ouww..

There is 1 guy.. i called him faisal.. what i could say is.. He is freakin genius in math!!!! He was my fesi during this one program. I see him a very interesting person.. hope could known him better..

till then..

Mu3t..

2009-10-20T13:34:00.000+08:00

~ I'm the lats group.. So waiting is really toturing!!! i hate waiting...
~ Our title is.. nowdays youngters is very lucky . Why??? So i choose that we are easilly can access informations...
~ But i flunk in my task A.. Coz i get point that its hard for me 2 explain n elaborate... Which is..
Because of peace and independence is the reason why we are lucky...!!

I was like... what should i talk bout this point.. n yeah i manage get 1 explanation.. because of independence we are peace n no war.. omg i just saying the crap thig.!!!! waaa.... But atleast all the examz is over!!! only left writing,reading,n listening.. for MUET..

finaLLy....

2009-10-19T14:47:00.000+08:00

eX@mmss... ended

Well... Any comment for the PSPM paper 4 matrics sudent???
Me: Chem n Math paper 2 is freakin hard..!!!!!!!

I got this msg after the math n chem paper finished..:

ayat sebelum PSPM,
~"nothing is impossible!!!"

ayt selepas paper math;
~the least i could get maybe 2.5

ayat slps paper chem;
~ermmm.... nak isi SPA mcm mana??

So.. I'm wondering, is the paper exams 4 matrics student this hard??
~ Just finish Bio paper 2day.. so..so..
~ 2moro is my MUET test for speaking... hope my neuron still can transmit its impulse efficiently.. So that i would not trembling searching for words...

~Nazrin is busy preparing himself 4 his finals..

~fara, i think she's fiished her exams by now.

~Hanif: enjoying himself.. in his 2nd sem.. Coz all the subject doesn't required his neuron n cerebrum 2 work hard.. Don't forget to treat me yeah!!

~aman : haven't contact her since the last hols..

~wida : she's starting her 2nd sem by the time i starts my hols.. which is 2morrow..

~ hafiz: hurmm.. same with me.. gonna enjoy our hols..

~ irfaan: hurmm.. haven't contact him 4 ages..

who else?? did i miss anybody??

Don'y care..

I'M GONA N' WILL WATCHED NEW MOON!!!!!!! ITS ON AIR 20TH OCTOBER!!!!!! 2MORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Weehhoooooo... Its Hols!!

2009-07-24T23:15:00.002+08:00

Well... this post a liltle bit late.. kind of. Well Currently i'm enjoying my hols with TV, Sleeps!!!!!! Eat.. Tv Sleeps!!!!!! man tyeah.. I suppose to study for the upcoming examination on october though.. I HAVE!! MUST!!!!

But I cant control my temptation to just relax without thinking of the books and study yeah.. I need a break.. But I can't.. I realize it..

Speking of hols, I went out with y matrix friends and suppose with my Usj 13 peeps... which is 'u know who'.. But unfortunately that day is heavy downpour.. Well he change his mind not to go but to sleep with the cooling and breezy air blowing through his face?? haha yeah right..

Aman..
weehoo... aman starts her hols today until next week because in UM they only given 1 week for break.. SEE!!!! matriculations students we should be greatfull!!! and study more frequently NOT relaxing until we became lazy to study... (that's me)..insaf ... So she'll be spending her hols in indonesia.. that is totally great rite...
Plus aman that i know has slighly change in personalities.. Well she became a liltle bit matured than before.. Just by hearing her voices through the, so called Hp... i can felt the changes in her..
p/s i love u and always my friend

fara
She moved, just nearby her 'taman'.. Currently she enjoying her hols till this sunday i guess.. because of her UITM is closed for a while due to the H1N1 case. And yeah not to forget she taking bussiness.(am i spell it correctly)

nazrin
He also in hols currently because of the H1N1 cases in his UITM... before this he caught up with fever and flu.. But now he's just in a nice condition ubtill he forgot to tell me that he is back from Penang!!! how could you!!! its okay then.. BTW to hanif.qay,imran he has a new Best buds!!!

I wish i could write more but my eye and head getting dizzy... wahaa... i'm still young though to have a tremendously eye problems!!! sob.. sob..

P/s i love all my beloved friends!!!!!!!!!!! muachzx..

eX@mssssss/....

2009-07-24T22:43:00.002+08:00

Dear bloggie, long time haven't write anything,.. Well yeah been a lil busy lately... As you know exams week... sleeps with book, dreams about epithelium tissue... frequency.. photon.. De broglie.. bohrs postulates... inequallities.. u'll find it weird... and gasping for air after u wake up from all the dream.. yeah.. i felt like running 1 500 m... fuhh... But i have to remind myself that matriculation is easier than UIA, UTP,UM... I admit it.. After heard from my other fellow peeps...

Coffee??

Use to be.. coffee is my best friend.. TO keep up my dendrites functioning very efficiently during burning the midnight oil.. But then, i found it makes me tired for the next day.. it felt like my body didn't fully recharge... so yeU I STOP consume coffee...

Stay up??

During the exam weeks.. i try not to stay up late due to.. like people said rest your brain and our physical to prepare ourselves for the 'war'... =''= (yeah rite)

chemistry..biology... math..

Well I done it very carelessly.. yeah!! trully... I'm so freaking piss!!!... I can't say anything do i?? Its totally my fault.. well i guess we just have to wait for the results to come out didn't we??

Till here..then.. and tomorrow..

twilight...... splendid..

2009-06-20T11:24:00.002+08:00

Dear bloggie, last night i've finally watched the twilight movie!!!! I love the storry line which shows the true love between two different species as i can recall... Vampire& human...
Can you just imagine, vampire consumes blood that has in human...
i can't describe by wordshow great the story line is... OMG i love EDward!! he's eyes strong and sharp!!!showed his personalities(protective, strong,lovingfull)........ Guys take note.. the girls love tobe protect and to be loveand caring....

studies..

As ussual, its weekend so, we're given piles of work and assingment to be complete within this2 days... omg!!! it's tiring and painfull than secondary school. (for sure)..
my chemist lecturer is like our principal in usj 13 but she's 3x strict than pn robiah!!! so i can say, pja is inversely propotional to chemist lecturer...
for bio lecturer, i can loudly say and claim she's the true proffessor!!!! she's awesome because she tought us the theoritically and in an aspect of life... ahah.... same herehanif,chemist lecture is for regain ourenergy loss!! sleeps........ i don;t know why... so i try my very best to concentrate 102% during this lesson to not fall asleep...

I bought a 4 G thumdrives for RM38!!! how reasonable is that!!!!

money..

The Rm1000 income from the government is not yet bank in.. so i have to use my precious savings... to susrvive!!!!!!!!!!! waa.... most of my colleague called me skeleton!!! trust me...i've gain enough weight..... i ate alot plus my skin tanned!!! wohh... During the day,there's no cloud to reduce the ultraviolet rays!!!!!!!!

as always...for my prince n princess!!!! our covalentbond will never breaks.............because of our love bonding!!!!!!!!!!!! muachx~!!!!

2009-06-20T11:24:00.000+08:00

hmmmmm.....

2009-06-12T12:44:00.002+08:00

Dear bloggie, yeaah.. its already 1 month i've been in matrics... haha.. big deal.. As i can say for now i still can hang on and boost up my 'semangat' to study.. although we really has no time 2 relax.. i have to done my lab report, tutor, plus study ofcourse.. but the best part is, we can handle the light microscope by our own plus we can see a clear imafe of cell!!! haha.. whoopy.. My chemist tuytor always being 'cruel' to us.. push us to study to the limits.. i a + way yes.. she done a great job, but she often being sarcartic!! i hate when she said " saya blh kategorikan class nie terlebih vitamin M" ohh man.. i felt like a spear struck my heart...

Currently, in our college chaos with so called ' pilihanraya'.. there's poster everywhere andtheir slogan is quite borring!!! 'vote 4 me, so that i can help u' ahat kind of 'to be a leader' is that??? i spotted one amusing slogan, s=vt, s=splendid,v=victory, t=the 1.. how interesting that slogan yeah..

Till then, i have 2 catch up with my assingment and STUDY!!!! cant wait t4 sem break in july!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A place Called here....

2009-06-04T18:33:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps.. it's been a while since my latest post. My latest news is I'M AT MATRICS!!! AT KEDAH CHANHLOON... HOw far is that?? it is almost the border to thailand.
Its freakin hot here. It's like at Mesir!!! During the day, you can feel the heat reaching up till the max capacity. At night, i still sweating like hell. Okay cut all the whether issuse.. 'sight'

So on 11 mei 2009 i've been forced by my real father to register myself to matrics. 2 days before the registration day, i have to settle up all the documents that is required for the registration day. Not just that, i have to pack my cloth and all the stuff needed. In matics, we can't wear informal cloth when attend our 'class'..Thus we have 2 wear so called baju kurung all day long until our class ended. For anyone who really know me, they shall understand how i felt... ahHHHH... at the end of the class, my skin face produced alot of sebum and i felt the entire of my body is sticky and smelly.. Yucks i hate it11 Plus our class finished at 4 pm!!! As for my schedule, i only have 1 hour 4 break...

Change sub.. to all my beloved friends which is amanina, wahida, hafiz, hanif, qayum and imran which currently further their studies...... i wish you guys the best and fight for your future yaw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Our friendship will never fades till the very end of our life......... sarangheo.

The Uninvited movie.

2009-04-29T22:38:00.002+08:00

Dear bloggie, looks like this horror movie is...... how can i define this fabulous?? I guess..
So, I went to watch a movie which is Fast And Furious.. at first actually.. But my friends hanif n nazrin already watched it.. Kind the dissapointed though coz i'm dying to watch this movie!!!!! So yeah.. we (aman,me,hanif,nazrin) watched this mivie.. Its fun n yeah scarry.. But hanif always.. laughing when the 'thing' came out.. Hanif why u act so heartless?? Nazrin?? Act like is doesn't scarry at all.. Huh boys... so eventually only me and aman screaming... haha.. big deal huh..

So if anyone wacth AF.. as u all know..aril is out!!!! its totally beyond my mind.. coz he did very well on that day... aiyo.. his the cutest among them all.. Where all the aril voters??? who knows he is irwan shah brothers... hehe..

till then

Matrics.. huh..

2009-04-22T14:06:00.003+08:00

Dear bloggie... i did get metrics at kedah.. Hurmm now waiting 4 ipta.. Thanks 4 my dear friend hanif n samyra 4 your advised.. Its through though..

So currently i'm taking my driving license .. practically.. i guess.. hurmm... So its been a week since my termination as a S.A in 7E.. quite bored i guess.. Well actually i have so many things to do.. Which is.. gain more general knowledge. About politics?? naaahh.. About surroundings.. about this world..

I'm totally in love with the hottest korean drama which is BOYS OVER FLOWER !!!! Dang!!!! I will buy the dvd.. I think.. Coz it's totally expensive though.

BTW i hang out with my dear and beloved friends on 17th april 2009... It supposed to be our happy day al together.. I guess.. but something missing.. Well other than fara is not comming.. But 'something' else is missing... our laugher..our moments.. and the joyest moment.. is now gone.. I guess all of is grown up huh..

Till then... will write to u soon.. muachx!!

what's up??

2009-03-26T21:47:00.002+08:00

Dear bloggie, today i received a call from california politechnics university.. Well i'm eligible to register myself in that U.. And yesterday.. i received a call from MSU.. Foundation in Pharmacy.. She said i can register whenever i like which is on april intake nor june...

So i guess, I can choose which Univesity i want to go huh.. hurmm btw 2day i paid my license fee by my own which is RM200.. hurmm>??
And college Lagenda also.. waiting for my comfirmation.. hurmm..

Now i'm so freakin tired.. huhu.. i glad my mom help me out in appying all the college n U.. k Then.. daaaa...

2009-03-25T23:04:00.002+08:00

Ohaiyosa....

Well.. its been a while i haven't write anything in my bloggie.. hurmm let say.. I got the job at 7 E as a S.A.. Which is sales assistant.. I started at 1st of january 2009.. Untill now.. I'm still working.. The payment is RM750 basis.. not including the allowence and all stuff..

and yeah spm result is already came out.. My results is damn bad.. haiyoo... But failed onece is doesn't mean fail forever right...
life just like a circle.. yeah thats right.. hurmm..

I'm in a 'dilema' because don't know what courses i'm going to take.. whether in medicine field or enggineering field...help me..
I'm thinking on going 4 ALAM.. Which is akademi tentera laut...
hurmm...
well in my group i'm the only 1 who get belowed the line.. fuhh.. its totally dissapointed..

Dear bloggie, i'm going 2 introduced u 2 all of my colleague.. which is..

~Abg shahir: Asm
~ Kak yus : M.t
~ Kak Za : s.a
~ Kak Emy : s.a
~ wadi : s.a

Well i can say my boss is.. he has this law of attraction.. I mean charisma.. Well good loking?? hurmm i don't know.. He really has a small body figure coz he is skiny..

Dear bloggie.. i have 2 go.. coz im tiotally exhausted.. tomorrow i'm working starting 7am.. huhu.. wish me luck.. muachx love...

2008-12-29T12:34:00.002+08:00

What's happening at the end of 2008...

Dear bloggie, I'm trully sorry coz it's being along time i didn't write anything in this page.. I guess been busy lately.. huh..

First and foremost i want 2 let u know that my beloved friends which is fara, wida, haqim and shahir is working!!!! Well wida working as clerk in parkson at pyramid. Others working at parkson also as a cashier at S.parade.. Cool huh..
You know what.. Haqim was being seduced by penkid.. She said towards haqim can i kiss and hug you.. Isn't insane.. THen just yesterday he said it's already settle... hurm i guess it's settle then yeah...

So next story is, i haven't register myself for driving class.. coz my parents.. been busy.. i guess.. And i already been interview by the manager in 7e.. Cools huh.. But hopefully i get the job..

So next story is, pja ditawarkan further study at overseas.. But depends on my result..

2008 comes to the end...
It's been almost a year i'm struggling with books and teachers...
It's been a year i've got through this hectic lifetime...
It's been a year i'm struggling with my life...
2008 comes to the end....
I'm relief.. Trully...
2008... witnessed everything..
Witnessed my hardworking..
Witnessed my hectic life..
Witnessed my sadness..
They know how painfull my heart is...
When always be the person who been blame all the time...
All this while..
I'm the one who does the wrong thing..
Who unindependent...
Who have a short memories...
Who can't remember where i put all the things that's mine...
I'm the who get all the blame...
Not other's people...

2008...
WItnessed everything...
It's trully a memorable time for me...
Full of memories...
full of ups and downs moment...
I love 2008...

It teaches me how to appriciate..
It show's me the reality of life..
It teaches me...
Eventhough we are a family...
You cannot trust tem to trust you...
You know why...
Because whatever happends.. They always gona blame you at the end of the day...
TRUST ME...
I've been through it..
A lot times before..
They just gona blame you..
although it is not your fault... but theirs
The ending is predicted..
They always gona win...

You know what...
Just let them be..
Because...
What you give you will get back...
They will know how sad and miserable you are...
when they suffered the same things as what they did to us..........................

Welcome 2009.................

iT's all about 4 dec 08...

2008-12-06T02:52:00.003+08:00

that is my bday presen!! outside of the pyramid..

its a happy family pictures 2008 at pyramid...

we are waiting for my qimo,fara n idayat..

Aren't we like a twins?? that is aman..

haha... ifan kena tembak..

On 4 dec 08, it was so enjoying day!!! this is because, we're having our gathering sessions... with all My beloved ones.. wida, fara, aman, qimo, ifan... i am trully love them... trully..

The thing is, actually i've planned that all of us which is wida,aman. fara, qimo, ifan,hafiz,afiq, hodayat going to watch movies then ice skating... But the majority didn;t want to go ice skating... because they running out of money.. okey then... although i felt a bit sad,.. coz there's no "ice skating"... so instead of ice skate, we're went for bowling.. Well it is kind the cool.. But that time i'm ot in the mood.. enjoyed...

You know why... Well i admit i am a lilttle bit sensitive person.. so beginning of the game... i'm not enjoying myself... but then.. after a while.. i really enjoyed it... But.. I came last scorer.. honestly i really not good at bowling though.. hehe...

So after we went bowls... qimo, wida,aman,afiq looking for my belated birthday present... so.. yeah.. i have to "missing" in order to they buy my present... wahaaha...

I couldn't believe qimo bought a pair of earing for me.. it is so lovely and sweet... aman n wida buy a love pillow 4 me... it is so sweet n beutifull!!! afiq bought a "tikus dlm de ade air" it is so cute.. trully.. i love all the gift...

By the way... within the outing day.. pja rase sket jelous la wit my friend let me call her 'kayla'..and the guy is ' kuzer' so well.. lately.. kuzer likes to talk n hang out with kayla.. i mean he felt entertaint with kayla stories and jokes... and i've been ignored... i really felt sad.. i cried that day... thank god no one noticed it...
so well ithink kuzer didn;t like me anymore.. he likes kayla more than i... yeah i really felt so disappointed... well i'm a girl rite.. so i noticed that kayly loves attentions and i think he likes kuzer 2... i can see by her body gestures n her look towards kuzer..
Kuzer is really a sweet guy,, handsome.. very..very gentleman... he such a sweet guy...

i think i starts to likes him.. love?? i don't know... let the times tell us yeah...

preview for 2008 in my life..

2008-12-06T02:03:00.005+08:00

Dear bloggie, i've been busy all this year.. Yeah 4 sure... it is because i was a SPM candidate back then.. On 2008.. yeah i was Spm candidate..

2008 is coming to the end.. I don't know why i felt sad.. lonely.. scared.. I wonder why i felt that way.. Within these year.. i've been through a lot of things.. since i didn't wrote all the things happened in 2008... So, i really can't remember well what was the "things" that i've been through..

So, starting from this year.. i've been choosen to be the president of librarian... WEll for sure i was shocked.. I am though.. So, i accept the challenge

being a leader.. Honestly i was so nervous back then.. But i took it as a challenge..

Furthermore within i'm the leader, it felt really good.. IT's because this post had improved myself.. Which is.. it helps 2 boost up my confidents level.. work as a team.. Although, it's help in mentally.. it leaves effect on my studies.. MY result is totally.. like shit.. i'm not like fara, she had been a great leader in her old boarding schools... i'm not like aman.. she's a genius..

Back to my story, as you know back i was in form 4.. i was so miserable+giving up person+full of tears+fragile... this is all becaused all my beloved ones has been transfered to boarding schools... I felt so alone.. and i hardly cope up with my studies.. Therefore, i have 2 pay back all my efforts into form 5... Well i really tried so hard to cope with the studies.. As the results almost all my subjects was improved..I'm so glad..

2008 is come to the end,,

It's gonna end soon..

Only a few days left..

The sorrow, it slowly engulf myself..

I'm hoping our special relationships is not gonna end...

2008...

witnessed all of our pain.. sadness.. enthusiasm..

The most thing is our love story..

2008..

is comes to the end..

........................

there's no word in this world..

beyond the galaxies..

to describes our love story..

Our friendship...

Our story in 2008.....

i like you... maybe i love you...

Sometimes.. i really hates you...

I am.. beyond your expectations..

As i said.. there's no word on this world.. to describe it...

Goodbye... 2008...

wow!!!! happy new year!!!!

2008-01-11T23:35:00.000+08:00

Dear bloggie i want 2 wish happy new year!!! 2008... haha.. I know its a bit late though.. well Bcoz of?? i'm kind a lazy 2blogging lol lately. So my aim this year is 2 get 9A! though... well u know i take 10 sub.. well i target my chem is B.. Hurmm mayb becoz of i dun hav pattion on dat sub?? who know;s??

Dear bloggie, u noe my fwen Mior Ghazi left the skewl.. He studies in private Sri Cahaya skewl.. Owh my n the other thing is.. The fee for the 1st sem is RM 15000... its madnest!!!
My sis she's taking foundation also Rm 8,000..... well nowdays is no money no life huh?? aite... That's damn right...

Dear bloggie in 2008... I've been elected as a secretarry of Kadet Polis and Rumah Sukan... huh.. damn i dun like it...

Dear bloggie, today Haqim blk 4 weekends.. Well he said that this year he has been choosen from the teacher to enter a better class!!! wow.. for him.. he really deserved it though..

Dear bloggie, 2molo i hav 2 wear full uniform of kp.. and after dat.. i have a tuition to attend.. at 12 pm.. and aftre my 2tion.. i will go hyper.. haha.. huhu... well this year.. i must struggle very hard 2 achieve my target!!!!

I luv all my bestest fwen!!!!

hurmm?? why worried?/

2007-12-18T20:19:00.000+08:00

Dear bloggie.. Hmm yesterday.. There's 2 person makes me worried like hell.. Guess who bloggie?? ITs Haqim and Nazrin.. Well Haqim well being is kind a weird though for me.. Because he didnt reply my msg and didnt pick up my hp call... Damn I worried.. Moreover after i get that horrible news. My sis friend which is automaticly becomes 1 of my fwenz 2.. so the bad news is, matul and hana(i dint noe her) involve with accident. Matul had injured her left leg.. Patah.. scarry huh...
Then... What in my mind wondering is IS HAqim also involved with accident?? that's why i worried damn much.. Thus at the end.. He called me.. then he explain why is that.. this lol... What i Cant believe is.. He study 5 hours direct mah... that's so insane...

Dear bloggie, Nazrin case is about.. He really addicted with smokes.. huh... because of love..

Dear bloggie, Kak liana hav a bit prob with her fam... her mom.. ganas...
K till then.. cheerio..

HUrmmm continue.. UKM story..

2007-12-12T00:04:00.000+08:00

ustad yg character mcm baby.. pja yg x letih possing.. ibu.. ayu memanjang..

pnat deyh... kaki gue.. sme kwn2 ku yg fwenly n sweety sgt2!!!!

Bol.. kamue mmg comel.. p

Di atas gunung yg mendamaikan.. tersebut alkisah.. yg sweet!!! kenangan terindah beb!!!!

Wah nie last day kat UKM... I really miss dat moment !!!

Dear bloggie, day 4 in UKM,,
Hurmm... we get along with abg2 fesi.. expecially ustad... hoho...

WEll about today... ada ank ular tryy msk in my ouz.. huh... then i bit it till penyek.. haha... im not evil kay.. AND rafiqe always called me.. this lately.. well i started to 'syg' hakim... hurmm.. why?? i dunno.. today.. yana n yuni from math sms me.. woh i miss them a lot though... dey all nak hang out with me n mama... well i guess some other time huh....

Dear bloggie, this season is rainy day.. pahang, rompin, kelantan, johor.. started to floode.. huh... pja bersyukur shah alam tak dilanda banjir... hurrmmm...
WEll i really miss abg2 fesi. prof.. and UKM.. N all my new friends.. yg sweet sgt2...
theres sum pic i want 2 show...

hey.. hey.. mexico??

2007-12-11T23:58:00.000+08:00

Dear bloggie, papa went 1 mexico for 1 week plus 1 days.. because of work.. HUrm he departed from the KLIA on monday... lol... KInd a sad though.. then my sis as usual she has her classes.. So i will b staying home alone on the day light only... hurmm...

wee... just come back from UKM!!!!

2007-12-06T21:39:00.000+08:00

Dear bloggie, yeah it's been a while i haven't Write my day life in here aite... Okey, let me tell some of the story in here..

Day 1 in UKM, Friday 30 nov 2007
Me, myself and Fara Aimira(ibu) check in the UKM.WE were given each 1 of us a pillow and bedsheet. After a while.. we setup our bed and make the room looks tidy..then pergi kat uniten.. my sis plak nak kena check in. Then A couple hours latter, pja n fara mkn dinner at the tent.. at 7pm.. well ofcourse we've met a few people.. i mean friends.. then At 8 pm the class started. and hurmm 1st nite pja sleep with fara... just ok.. but i heard all kind of things. dogs barking at 3 am.. ders someone ask kat luar tingkap.. " aik tak kan tak tdo lg?". freaking huh.. kind a.. The first 4 days is math subject.. Well the prof name is Cikgu Salleh.. Cara dia mengajar well 1st expression.. kind a WOW SENANGNYA NAK BWAT!!!

Day 2, Saturday 1 sAURDAY 2007.. Yeah!!! fara da jatuh hati dengan abg fesi.. his name is ridwan.. WEll his character is baby n cutey.. and his study in AGAMA ISLAM.. Wow.. tapi i admit he is charming.. though.. Next cutey abg fesi is abg faizal n abg firdaus!!! and 1st cutey of the female is kak izzati, 2nd is kak nana, 3nd is kak tipah...

Day 3, Sunday 2007..
HOho... ada some friends yang palimg cute!! ayu!! sporting!! fungky!! sempoi!! friendly max point!!
putot~ sempoi, friednly, she has a cousin a boy..,
Bol~ mke mcm ball, cute sgt2!! gelak kuat.. ske cubit pja, ske cubit pipi pja..
ayuni~ she's so preety n gorgeous, pandai!!, friendly, full of character feminim..
Amalina~ she's a good photographer, she's adorable, hyperactive, melatah, cool damn cool..
amir~ good cooker, hurm ske mencapap, hurm like 2 b pic model, his damn friendly!! and his father is hamzaid, hurm he has a intelligens sis... taking phD currently.. he also cutey.. 4 me.. he has everything.. plus hes genlemen..
Syafiq~ he is cute, well juz met him though.. ske wat rambt landak.. hoho..
Yana~ friends of ayuni.. she's preety but look matured plus clever.. so friendly.. miss all of them!!
hani~ hurmm tggi, she has a boo.. but bkn gedix nye type.. she is a sweet person n hav a sweet face..
ati~ we called her mentos girl coz.. she always ask ( teka2 colou ape mentos nie)
Joyah~ hurm her real name is hidayah.. i called her joyah coz her voice so loud.. when she try 2 explain math or ad math 2 her fwen.. bdn kecik.. mkn byk.. suara kuat..
Raziq~ never met him.. tp de ade my no coz he ask his fwen 2 mintak from me.. hur,.. cara mcm beriman??
Rai~ netball player, tggi, sweet face, ade boo, soft spoker.. friendly... has a less self confidence..
Jody~ chinese, cute, talkative, friendly, like 2 ask 2 da prof if she's not understand..
Calvyn~ good, loyal fwen towards dvua.. her fwenz.. friendly... cute.. trully!!
Dvia~ cepat demam, skiny lil gurl, pandai mengajar expecially towards fara.. friendly, ske tr pki 2dong..
Isa~ friends of amir, pendiam, shy towards gurl, ske study, kuat iman, cutey, hard working boy, x ske waste time... his face like my ex(amir)
Agogo~ wearing spec, ske flirting, oldfashion, but trully friendly, like 2 walk around in da dewan kuliah...

hurm... till then.. 2molo i will conyinue writing... tata...
lurv u guys!!! ibu!!! i wat 2say sowie very2 much 4 da sandal, aman hope u enjoy ur hols at u.k.. nitey... love u always... i'm gonna miss u all fellow easy math!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! muachxxxxxxxxxxxxx!!!!

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It's been a while.....

2007-11-30T11:41:00.000+08:00

Dear bloogie... It's been a while i haven't bloggibg yeah.. Acctually i have a lot story to write in but times envy if i do so..

Dear bloggie, yesterday i went out with ibu, akim, n ibu's family. Well we watch ENCHANTED. It's kind a thrilling story. And today.. pja kena pergi bangi UKM. Coz pja amik course easy math. Ibu pon ikut jugak. Today also.. hakim blk kg. Hurmm.... He said dat he likes me... he want 2 be m bf... But im not ready yet.. Its just to fast.. ALthough ade rse syg sket dkt die.. Hurmm. Lets times decides yeah...

Dear bloggie, Rabu lepas all the MRSM students.. (my fwenz, my lovy, my prince)... Damn its full of excitement.. Tak terkata nak diungkapkan rase syg ... sg.. syg... dekat dey alll.....
wida, ibu, aman, itik, afiq, dyat, hakim, hafiz.....
U guys... jauh dimata dekat dihati... pja syg sgt2,.. u guys... tak terkata....

MAY GOD BLESS U ALL MY PRINSESS N PRINCE........

Can i trust the promises...??

2007-11-16T20:26:00.000+08:00

Dear bloggie, Hey there's a person promise me that he will always be by my side. And will always reply my msg. Not just that, before this also he makes a promise... i cant remeber because of what. But still.... He just dissappear like that. I hate him.
kalau tak blh nak tunaikan janji.. jangan la buat janji dengan pja. Pja benci sgt kalau orang buat janji tapi tak boleh nak tunaikan.. I hATAE IT SO MUCH!!!!

Dear bloggie, now 3 person likes me. I mean they want me to be their gf. Huh.. But i decline. Hurm I'm not easy to accept him. What a world huh??
Dear blogie, ntan my bestest friend, She have a boyfriend. Well according the discription that Intan made, He is STAR. What I mean is he is a sweet poetry, get high marks in his exam, active in sports, and quite good looking i think. Plus this is the last year she going 2 stay in usj. I mean she gonna move next year. What a sad storry huh???

Dear bloggie, I think i have change. I dont know how to describe it. I just felt that i had change. Hurmm.. and.. my feelings.. my love towards any1 its like fade away from me...

some pic... on my opn ouz...

2007-11-14T17:01:00.000+08:00

His name is Qisti.. Damn cute right??

Ashraff(cutey), Fikri, Aiman, Tun ( masaym), Hakim cool)

hurmm reunoin?? Tasha, zafran, Amir ( macho), Arif (sweet), aliff ( kind)

Kanak2 riang!!!!! tTun!!!

Hey.... who remember my birthday...?

2007-11-12T23:20:00.000+08:00

Dear bloggie, You know something?? Most of all my friends at the boarding school forgot to wish me and forget when is my birthday. Except Afiq. He so so... sweet.. Not just that, my DEAREST friend also didnt even wish me at all... AT ALL!!!! Plus my bestest friend Intan ALso forget to wish me. That's harsh isn't?? huh.... How sad though.. Well I know it's not a big deal though. But as time passes us, I Then realize very1 is changging... our friendship is now dn't have any bond to tied up.. I mena to make it stable..

Dear bloggie,

When ever i read up again those poem,
It's often at time like these,
That I let myself drift upon waves of sweet reminiscene,
I wonder why am I the one is still here..?
Watching up.. Upon the sky..
All of them leaving me...
Yeah.. now I now...
JUst realize.. Although..
I already predict it's going to end up like this..

I'm hopping.. There will a? some?....
Of sweet poems for me...
All of those poems makes me happy...
Alive...
I wonder Why??
Hey.. Life is like a Farris Wheel...
I love the scenery..
When I was on top of it...
It is a wheel right..
Thus Soon or later..
I'm going down..
Far away from the bright blue sky..
that i adore and love so much..

Hey.. I know i'm loosing u all.. All of you...

Today... wow!!!!

2007-11-11T00:59:00.000+08:00

Dear bloggie, today.. Papa friend I forgot his name lew.. But the coolest part is.. Actually he is my friend nye dad.. Its Amelia nye dad.. How shocker huh.. And i found out Acap were there.. We met him at the enterence. I thought He gonna say hye to me n my family.. And suddently.. He just walk away. Didn't say hey or anything. My mom said " haih, sombong nye acap 2 pja, bkn nye nak salam ke ape". I Replied " huh Die mmg mcm 2 mama, kalu tejumpa kt memane kew, mane nk tegur pja". My sis said " huh, nasib baek ko break ngn die pja".

Dear bloggie, Toninght... i mean this morning... damn earky mrng.. i"m so tired... I'm going cntinue... the real morning... k misss you bloggie..

Open house....

2007-11-11T00:01:00.000+08:00

Dear bloggie, I had an open house on Thursday, 8/11/07. It was quite fun and happening though. The best part is, one of my friend it's Hakim. He came to my house on time that is 3 pm plus his ride is by taxi. OMG I felt touch and flattern. I mean he willing to saccrifise his money and time just to come to my open house. I'm so happy. Not just that, infact his the 1st person.. I mean my friend who came the earliest!!!!! How cool is that??? Damn cool babes..

Dear bloggie, hurm the list of my guess( my friend) according time..
~ Hakim
~ Tun
~ Acap
~ Then x igt aa ikut urutan....

Dear bloggie, That time my sis she baked lazangania ( is that how to spell it?) plus spagheti and caronara white sauce. All my friends like her cooks!!!! wow amazing!!!! WEll actually my sis she really good in making weatern food. How cool aite. Okey then after that it went smooth... But Acap is annoyed me.. he always embarassed me infront all my fwenz.. He said that i Dont have any talent palying guitar.. How dare him said like that. and.. Alif he live at bkt saga.. He hang out here untill 8 something.. we having a cool conversation.. rite alif..

All my love to my deary sis, Tun, Afiq, haqim, nash, hafiz, amir, arif, alif, acap and others....

Birthday....??

2007-11-08T02:33:00.000+08:00

Dear bloggie, last night 6 november 2007... The day.. What day?? It's my birthday.. The day I come out from my mother womb.. and knowing the world.. life..
Well I wonder.. Who will it be the 1st person wshing me??
I'm hopping someone.. Then the 1st person is.. my deary sis!!! I love her so much!!! She's the only one who gave me a birthday present..She gave me a Shirt. I really love it though, black shirt and there's some arts..

Dear bloggie, today on3 pm my house is open.. haha.. Well noe i'm so sleepy.. Acap punye pasal la nie.. Ajak maen game plak.. k then bloggie.. Let just call it a night..

why other people blame me..........

2007-11-04T22:16:00.000+08:00

Dear bloggie, Now i meant this moment.. this second.. I'm crying.. shievering.. with soundless.. Why is that so.. hey.. I'm the one type of sensitive person.. Yeah i am..

Tonight the wind is smoothly kiss my check,
The wind is my soul...
Soul to face the reality of life..
I need it..
Tonight.. it's raining heavily..
The wide anourmous sky...
Turns it's colour.. dark blue...
That's show how sad i am..
This nature...
Understand me well...
Then my friends..
This huge beutiful world...
I relly adore n admire them..
Their beutyful is realxing...

When it's start drizzling...
There comes a raining..
Then comes the thunder...
There comes the lighthning...
That's revil the truth of me...
That time's I was weak...
Cryingfor help...
Save me from this sadness...
Save me from this dark...
Someone.. please...
I cried... someone...

When ever this sadness cover me up...
I need something makes me calm...
away from this feelings....
Far away..
Thus... I shall fly up the sky...
Searching for love... calmness...
This wind...
This rain...
This waterfall..
This nature...
The important thing is...
This huge anourmous blue sky...
Makes me happy...
Although...
Just me... The only one fly up the sky....
Still it shall makes me happier then ever...
They are my true livers... This anourmous blue sky...
I shall fly up... Like an eagle...

Thus, I must throw all this sadness...
All This pain.. I shall leave it...

Life is full of sweet.. sour.. bitter... memories..
Like a ice lemon tea...

how sad..........

2007-11-03T23:54:00.000+08:00

Dear bloggie, kisah silam... atau zaman bayi saya. Mama saya story kat saya. Yang saya masa bayi, Kuat sangat menangis. Lagi2 bila waktu nak masuk magrib dan senja. Saya sendiri pelik kenapa saya berbuat begitu ya?? Then mama saya start cerita. Time saya bayi dulu.. Saya nie lemah semangat. Kalu keluar waktu senja je. Saya akan start menangis kuat2.. menjeit2.. Sampai mama saya bagi tahu kat saya yang dia terfikir sahaja nak campak saya. Saya masa itu.. Saya macam tergamam.. Smpai macam tu seklai saya membuatkan mama saya berfikir macam tuh...

k nnt continue ye... saya da nk tdo.

worse.. damn worse..

2007-11-02T18:59:00.000+08:00

Dear bloggie, today hakim is back from the boarding school. He just called me told me that he just arrived. wow I'm glad I have a friend like him. Know why.. Because atleast someone remember me 1st when they got back from the boarding school. And today Adham, he invited me o his open house. Wow i'm glad.

Dear bloggie, I got my marks for pfysics paper 3. I didn't understand why my marks is damn low. I really can't accept my marks... I've got only 15.It's to lo.. TO LOW!!! You wnt 2 know why my marks is damn low. Because I pass up the wrong paper.. On the exam.. I pass the paper that I want to throw it away. But.. nak buat mcam mana.. pja dah terima buku dan ruas. Tak tau macam mana paper yang pja nak buang tue tehantar time exam. The worst thing is I said to pn physics.. That my paper 3 is missing.. Then she told me to search in that plastic bag. Then I said again...
" cikgu paper sy hilang... tecabut dr paper nie kot..'
pn. phys " eyh mane ada tekoyak nie... kamu tipu la nie... kalu ada kesan koyak.. br lar nmpk mcm paper kamu tue hilang.'
me " huh.. in my heart.. i hate u damn much!!!! don't call me lier!!! kalu ada bukti saya nie tipu, tunjuk lar. maen tuduh je plak. ape kes!!!!!!!!!!"\
pn. phys ' eyh filzah.. tgk nie.. tgk... tak da kesan koyak kan.. hah kamu bohong la nie. saja je nak tipu saya kan.. "
me" tapi cikgu saya memang buat la.. siap lukis lagi.. takakn saya nak tupu kot!!! saya tau la ape yg saya tulis dalam paper exam saya tuh."
pn phys " ahh.. kalu macam tue .. awk silap hantar paper la 2.. blk nnt cuba awk cek dlm bag awk 2.. ntah2.. ada la kot...'

Dear bloggie, I really hate when somone .. expecially.. someone who really din't know me well.. call me a lier... that to much!!!! I hate that person... I will get mad u noe. because I know.. I'm Not the one who lied!!!! U damn it!!!!!!!!!!

hesy.. janji melayu..

2007-11-01T15:46:00.000+08:00

Dear bloggie.. yesterday I went to Summit to hang out with my friends its Hanif and Nazrin. Well we've planned we have to meet at the McD in 3 pm. Not just that, i promise to them that i gone to treat them an ice-cream if they coming. And planned to look for Honey And clover 2 dvd. I really want it though. And i waited them... and waited.. untill one point.. I called Hanif.. Ask him where is he right now, He replied me..
' hah.. kat umah lgla nie..( dlm mamai)"
' la.. Kate tak pegi Summit??'
' Erk bru bgn tdo la.. so tak g la'

OMG I felt like stupid. I waited them but in the end they didn't come. First i though like them.. I mean both of them didn't come to the Summit. And coinsedence Nik and Amalina planned to watch movie(Otai). And since my plan has just ruined because of them. So I decided to join them.. But because I alredy watch Otai.. So I watch other movie The legion. Alone.. Argh... Sound sad isn't..

And after the movie end.. I called Nazrin house.. To comferm that is he really didn't go to Summit.. Then I found that he did came to Summit.. But I wonder why i didn't saw him yesterday.. huh what a day huh..

Dear bloggie.. tomorrow Fahren he gone to make an open house. He invited me just now. But I can't go because Adham also make an open house 2molo night. Wow 1 st time huh i'm gonna go to an open house at night.. huh..

Dear bloggie, Why is always our friends is not really our friends.. I mean... at first they said like this.. ' hey don;t be sad, i'm always here there for you.. I can be a good listener.. I can be ur shoulder to cry.. And i'm not gona left you alone.. forever.. Till the day I die..
Yeah.. i really trust that words though. I am.. But Now everything is change.. The person that I trust.. The person that I know well.. Is now crushing my heart down the drain.. Everything is fade away..

From my dearess friend..

2007-10-30T12:47:00.000+08:00

Torn To Pieceses..

Everytime I looked at someone smiles,
I wonder why is that person is able to smile..
Why that person can be happy as if soaring up i the sky..
without any hesitation..
Freely roaming through the wide blue sky..
While I stuck locked inside a small cage and forever hide from everyone..
from ever opening it to free me frommy despair..
Sadness that brings oblivious to myself..
So after all this wasted time..
Wondering endlessley..
Unknowingly forever I will be lonely..
For only s worthwhile to someone..
to care for me..
But how..
No one .. no one .. and no one..

Cut of my wings that used to fly..
higher and higher..
Soaring..wanting to searching..
everywhere.. every place..
Everyspot of I know ..
not anymore..
"is it okey to let it go?"
yes it is..
cut.. tear.. rip..
name it..
I will tear it of till no more blood shall spill..
the pain.. that not no one knows..
every in everyway i try described it..
Standing still on high to root..
Hearing the sound of the wind..
blowing through softly the desire to fly..
The only thing I could do is smile..
upon the bright blue sky was once I call home..
At last the desires dies like an chamberextinguished instantly..
Smile.. just smile..and just smile..
Be the moon above..
Lastly smile...

hey he really leave me though.. fade away from me... Its okey to let it go... it's okey...

Poems yang deberi kepada saya,,

2007-10-30T11:06:00.000+08:00

From my dearest friend.. its so sweet..

Sun shines
Stars sparkles..
Soar through the blue skies..
Flap the wings of freedom..
Think nothing you're special..
Be who u are.. Love u always..
~28/4/07~

Wave splashes on the shore..
Wind blows through the air..
Clouds swifts accross the ocean..
And the lands,
One thing remains here..
forever here..
My love to you, my dear..
~29/4/07~

Roses blooms at dawn,
High tidearive at dawn,
Sun risesat dawn,
I will walk at dawn,
And write a message..
That i care ,
That i love,
Is that you.
~30/4/07~

Wind blows on summer,
Cold breeze on winter,
Leaf witherd on fall,
Flower blooms onSpring,
But your heart blooms everytime season changes..
I really do love you..
~ 30/4/07 ~

Birds fly with wings flap gracefully,
by your ears,
Sky colourep purely blue by the naked eyes,
It's a paradise in ypur heart..
If only I was there to be with you,
Flames soar with intense..
Ashes fades to dust..
Something else frever remains..
And its belongs ours..
~ 20/6/07

Time passes with vaguely..
Far off into the distance..
But still i lost sight of something precious..
Violent and Fragile shards of memries..
Even if we both awaken from the dreams we share..
The wind blowsalong the fading scenery..
My memories go round and round..
Inside my head like a revolving lantern..
Time and time again..
But they just disapppear..
A sad merry-go-round..
I'll never forget this love.
~ 29/6/07 ~

Close your eyes..
and kiss me goodbye..
~ 14/9/07 ~

Sweet poems..frm my dearest friend..

2007-10-29T17:46:00.000+08:00

A word From a Boy..

What do you really get..
after you have somethng that you..
want so much?
For a worthwhile of period of time..
What ever happens if someone..
was something for someone you love..
Someone you want to be with..
Togather with someone..
But what happens..
if someone that is,
someone was going to die..
bacause an unknown virus..
What will you do..

After all the times you've been together..
with someone someone you dear most..
Someone you care for..
Wanting for someone love..
And yet silently driffting away everyday not knowing..
someone taht doesn't care bout you..
But still You want to be with her you love most..
Everything you did..
nor the less someone left you alone..
in the end..

Like the boy said..
Conceal of feelings lust for love..
Smiling is the way yo keep happy..
Thus not one living soul shall know of me..
Being left and forced to be in the shadows..

This poem is kindly tell me he in suffering.. well this is life...
sour, sweet, bitter... Just like a ice lemon tea..
This the reallity..

Poems from my dearest friend to me............

2007-10-29T17:12:00.000+08:00

Sad Nor Smile...

It feels something elsethen joy and happiness..
But instead a heartache.
Knowing you smiling,
Ohh.. is this happiness or despair starring up on the black sky..
filled with bright stars..
With the moon coverd by huge black cloud..
I wonder why?
Lets put it this way..
If the stars are shinning then its must be you..
If the moon is covered by a huge black sky..
then it must be me..
Sadness that's not showing but instead shines brightly..
by the reflection of the sunlight..
Pretending to be happy..
but to tell the truth the moon itself is ugly..
not showing other side itself..
Concealing of my feelings would be impossible..
but keeping it inside will i do the best..
So, only seeing with you is the only things..
makes me smile or sad..

he is so sweet like candy.. really.. but at that stage.. i cant.. i just like him to enjoy hislife..
mysterry guy huh??

Meaningfull n lovely day...

2007-10-20T22:13:00.000+08:00

Saturday
20/10/07

DEar bloggie, hari ini Tun buat open house. Well pja memang excited sangat2... i miss them alot!! hurmm hakim, idayat, and other fellow. disebabkan terlalu teruja, parents Tun srill remeber me. Know what is the treatmark 4 me?? 'oUWWH awk yg dtglast year kan, yg potpet..potpet tue." Pja plak dat time malu sgt2.. hanye tuhan yg tahu..pja fikir2 blk byk sgt kew pja ckp huh last year?? ye la agaknye. Mana taknye rumah Tun lawa and ada garden engglish style gitu. So last year pja siap tangkap pic sana sini dlm rumah dia. Memang muka x malu on pja that time. ahah.. Tapi last year intan ada and havouc gila. But this year havouc mmg la havouc and happening but intan tak de my bff x de. so mcm x syok sket. huh..
So this year, pja bkn sibuk tangkap pic coz my camera batt run flat. How sad is that. As the result i'm busy playing with baby Ya. hurm ank sdare tun. She is damn cute man.Well it just like nature from myself since childhood i love babies. Well while i'm busy playing with her, out of the blue aman said 2 me 'awk maen ngn baby 2 semata-mata nak dpt attention alif (cousin Tun) itu ke?' Huh.. tak ada maknaya la. pja tak suka la kaluorg accused me like that. Tp pja sudah biasa dah dgn aman nya attitude.

In mean whila all Tun's family usik2 tun.. tanya:
'hah Tun mane gf kamu ni? Yang mana satu??'
Some1 said 'Yg bj purple tue'
Aman pon malu2 lew..
pja plak da LOL!!
haha..

Well k then i want 2 stud lew...

it's being a long time....

2007-10-18T13:20:00.000+08:00

Thusday,
18.10.07
1.40pm

Dear bloggie, it's being along time i stop blogging. Well this week is hari raya festive. But it really not enjoying though. Because next week i'm having my final exam. Plus i've only can online when my dear sister s back from uniten. Hurm today i;m going to ibu house. having study group. OMG i really can't believe it.. i damn lazy stduying for this examanation.

Dear bloggie, last night acap, he told me his 'secret'. Damn after i knew it after he told me i get angry. U bet i am. Huh why this world has become mean. Wahat happened to all our malays?/ our religions?? Hancus.. i list up their name those who i know their secret deeply. ' Abg, acap, joe' I pray for them.. hope they stop!!!!! Ashraff, you have cute lil baby face and i know deep inside you you really intelligens, just don't ruin your precious life. Jgn cemarkan hidup acp dgn benda2 yg tak sepatutnya.

Dear bloggie, my pet bro he .. well as in mentallyhe already left me.. he didnt even text me and call me. Well that's why all this while i said everyone will cahange soon or later. But the sad thing is all this while he promised me always text me and never let me felt alone.. cry for help.. huh.. this the reality of life uh.

Dear bloggie, pja mmg ske novelist NASS ALINA NOAH. She really good in writing..
Well in 2007 she create 5 novel series its..'FLYING KISS, MY BABY GIRL, I MISS YOU, B'COZ OF U AND somethg.. i forgot lew..

kk then chiow.. luv u..

>Merdeka!!! merdeka!!

2007-09-02T21:40:00.000+08:00

Sunday
2/9/07
Dear bloggie, i miss u.. miss u somuch.. ahah.. its been a while rite. It's not that i stop blogging. just bein busy the whole merdeka festive. I involve in the tarian.. BAGAIKAN PUTERI.. well true i'm a bit stiff though. I want to write a lot!!! BUt still time not allowed me to do so.. B4 the perform day, all of us ( me,tina.chong.nik,ira,puteri) went 4 shopping.. at mydin and summit.. ahah that day damn fun noe.. although we curse taht stupid bugger.. he still want to give RM16.50... For that pants..it's called pario i guess..

Kalau nak Rm16 still blh thn lg, nie yg tak tahan 2 50 cent still nak lg.. gler btol. That day sme org short of money. So mmg mcm ape je ar we all sumpah dat seller.. as the result we bought the other pants cost RM10. Ok then... after that we all tekocoh.. nak lari coz ira ckp:
ira: wei korunk cepat sket.. ayh putri da tggu da kat luar.
filzah: hah?? cepat nye... jap2.. nak amik resit nie..

(we all lari ar mcm kne kejar dog)

(smpi kat blakang summit, sme org tecungap2)

putri: awk, bas stop mane?

we all: hah!!!! bas stop kat deapan lar!!!!

So mmg syok ar that day.. although mmg havouc.. k then i gtg..
miss u dear sis!!

Ibu is here....... +.+

2007-08-24T12:59:00.000+08:00

Thursday
23/8/07
1.10p.m

Dear bloggie, today and now fara, i mean its 'ibu'.. Damn i'm happy though!! Well.. Well... Afiq felt guilty coz our outing day didnt go really well. Ibu nie dah bising dah. So, i have to go now..\

To all my dear friend: ibu, cicak, itik, wida ,afiq!! i lurv u all!!!!

why?? ssh sgt ke nak kuar ngn pja?!!

2007-08-22T18:12:00.000+08:00

Dear bloggie, i'm so frustrated!!! You know why?? This b'coz all the MRSM students is damn lazy outing with me.. Well now i know all friends is just a friends.. Ahah.. i mean they all always busy. Yeah i know. But still i really want to see them.. I really miss them. Its hardly to see them, so can't they spent only 1 day with me? IS that yo hard for them?? Is that to hard?? Only 1 day.. That's only i request for..

Dear bloggie, Intan my dear friend, she's going to move next year. Well she also at the boarding school. Teknik seremban i think. Hmmm... So what the hack though. Actually the more we love n care bout them the easier they will loose far apart from us.. FAce the fact pja, all your true and dear friend is changing. This is life.. And i as anormal human being have to live with it..

till then....

holiday.. baby..!!

2007-08-18T22:49:00.000+08:00

sweet saturday
18/8/07
11.00

DEar bloggie, my dear auntie she admit at the hosp. suspected denggue. and yeah true holiday is coming !!!! i mean its now!!!

Dear bloggie, today we have a netball match.. anjuran kementerian ' rakan muda jiran muda'. if i not mistaken... so we won!! 3nd place.. cool or what right~~ But our reffery, she's kind a pulling at one side though. We want justice!!!

Dear bloggie, tomorrow our Taman is held a sukan organize by the kementerian. I planned to join that netball game, but the rules and regulation is only for under 15!! Its not fair though!!!!

Dear bloggie, just now i chatted with deary friend acap!! i misss him.. ahah.. plus not just that, wida, aman, ibu..... all the boarding schools, they all here!!! HOW HAPPY I AM!!!! but ibu ckp kan die ade penyakit... sight*

today and tomorrow...

2007-08-16T23:49:00.000+08:00

thursday
16/8/07
11.50pm

DEar bloggie, its been a while rite,, Well hurmm lately i kind a busy though.You know y bloggie, well library have to clean up 1st, because the jabatan will give mark on our library lol..

Dear bloggie, today is really windy day and raining from morning till day nigth.. i'm damn happy. Wind blow switfly on my face, wind is cold, cold like ice from the mountain, mountain is high like acliff near shore, thus wind gonna make us happy and calm whenever it slap smoothly my face........

Dear bloggie, today izat he want to get my attention.. You know why bloggie?? I didnt know.. a thing. How sad. Well he really have the style, look, plus brain.. but he is to over reacted when he sees me.. as me..

Dear bloggie, today my friend cried because of that genius girl. She is to much though.!! Today acap didnt come, today apez fly his add math sub, today we had dance prac, today i;m the 1 incharge in blk guru 4 the 'thing'.. ahah.. Luckyly zul n amil willing to help me out.. Zul raelly a good helper though. Today my sis n mom having their fever.. Poor they rite.. During this hols i really have 2 start to 'DICIPLINES' my self.. You know why bloggie?/ Exam just around the corner.

Dear bloggie, my friend loges.. He really a cool guy, good looking plus clever though.. This saturday he not going to tuition coz go 2 pankor.. cool huh..

to my dear fren n my sis.. luv n wish is always by ur sides!!

My sis back!!

2007-08-12T11:51:00.000+08:00

Sunday
12/8/07
12.00p.m

DEar bloggie, my sis is back!!! well for weekends only lol. But still I'm happy with it!! Well, yesterday is acap birthday. And hmm his mitchy gave him present. Well i just wished him.. but no response frm him.. ahah... everytime his burthday, everytime he make me annoyyed!!! huh... sigh..

Dear bloggie, my nephew nasrul currently in icu.. Damn huh.. his UPSR exam is just around the corner. I really feel sympathy for his fate..

Today i have to buy present 4 the games.. ahah... its me again riht?? kay then i gtg... tata..

lurv u sis..

i'm a happy....!!!

2007-08-09T00:05:00.000+08:00

Wednesday
8/8/07
12.20a.m

DEar bloggie, now and tomorrow, acp seems like a weird and moody.. Although diz week is his burfday. Ahah.. Amir always make me laugh although we kind a hang out in the buss only. Well he really.. really.. entertaint me..

Dear bloggie, i felt so sad and full of sympathy to my aunt. Well as a muslim from the distance i will pray her. I really love my whole family!!

Dear bloggie, frankly i want to say i hate my physics teacher!!!!! Omg!! i really really!!! hate her!! Now as i said i'm busy with all kind of things. Currently our school participate in the programme 'kitar semula'. Koperasi and library fight to win.. ahah.. ofcourse 'bersaing gaya hdp sehat!' ahah..
Dear bloggie, i really hope that 'he' not suffer because of me.. wink.. happy ever after yeah!!

love and full of cares to all of u!! expecially my sis!! nana!!

Helping ppl is not that hard!!!!

2007-08-07T22:12:00.000+08:00

Tuesday
7/8/07
10.15pm

Dear bloggie, i'm really really not satisfy with my mom attitude and decision!! Well her sister ( my aunt) is kind the in trouble. Latest news you know what bloggie?? my cousins her name is ain, she been affected denggue.. And ofcourse my aunt need 'some' help from my mom rite?? But my mom always and always being a selfish person.. always think herself 1st. But for me, i didnt care if i have to pick up her son every day and do this do that.. If i have a car ofcourse!! It's just don't make any sense!!!!

Dear bloggie, i really tiried think about school problem, currently.. ahah.. Not other then anything is my hw prob lar.. Sej note, bio note, and pis note.. OMG to much things to do man.. Consequently, make me stress!!! Btw The exam just around the corner... oh nooo!!!

Dear bloggie, i'm worried about my friend acap.. Well including today it's been 2 days he didnt come to school. Plus did not rep my msg!!!! Izat?? my 2tion mate.. he really2 made me piss of!! today... yesterday.. yesterday..!! i already kick his leg.. arghh!!!!

Dear bloggie, why is life full of opstical?? why??? and why do human grown up faster??? I really don't like being a grown up ppl!! it's to much pressure and responsiblelity!!!! Curently, amir hmm my 1st ex he always hang out with me lately.. Daaa... we're at the same buss!! ahah.. he always makes me laughing.. and 4get all my problem!!!

Dear bloggie, got to go now.. coz i have to study!!! Aiyooo....

To my sis.. i lurv u and miss u.. my dear fwenz... i lurv u all!!!

It's just not rite...

2007-08-06T23:47:00.000+08:00

Monday
6/8/07
12.00 am

Dear bloddie, today is a really tiring day for me.. Well hanif n apez came 2 school, atleast they always make me cheer up every single moment.. ahah You know why?? Because thet 'game'.. it's kind a uniqe and fun fun game for me yo. Well my dear friend apez he hmm get worried to much. Don't why, may be haid? ahah no kidding, he is 'he' ok??

Dear bloggie, my nephew i call him Imi. He suspected deggue. Poor that kiddo he only 5 years old though. My auntie had a hige fever since last 2 weeks. I feel very2 sympathy for them.. ' jatuh ditimpa tangga'? i think so.. So, today nashun is my nephew also. He having his upsr, ouch that must be tough. B'coz his family having so much trouble. WEll he staying at my hoose 4 this night.

DEar bloggie, i'm having trouble with my engglish language.. So, i'm trying to improve now.. ahah..

Dear bloggie, this saturday is some1 birthday.. It is acap!!
To my dearest sis, o really miss u alot!!! my bro, hmm it's have been a long period though we didnt contact each other nor msging.. My dearest fwen, tahnks coz always being a supportive person..

A few pic prefect dinner!!

2007-08-05T23:43:00.001+08:00

Wee... i'm almost as atall as ashraff!! well my fav colour yo.. its blue!!

Hafiz, wow u looks likle bussiness man, jas u look like corparat woman! swear.. u have that talent! Yati, looks feminem.. hehe

Tiff u look awesome!! i like that socks!! Shaun, taiko maa..
Rizal, looks very the cutte with that winked eyes!!

i'm with the macho guy!! Lelaki melayu terakhir?? haha...

Hmmm, what happened my friends?? It's blue!! ur hair..

The lurvly, gorgeous, handsome, charming guys n girlz!!

Sunday,

5/8/07

11.50pm

DEar bloggie, last time he said he gonna be my true bestfriends!! But, when i need him, he always avoid or busy with something. Plus he always make me mad!! He always make me embarassed!! Well he is not apez... Apez has his own life, so i don't want to disturb his happily life. 'He' who imeant is............. some1 who really don't know to appreaciate my kindness.... ahah...

Dear bloggie, i actually want to write a lot.. a lot... You know why bloggie?? Because i don't have any bestfwen.. i meant a girl.. paj nak luahkan semuanye kat some1 but, they all like don't bther at all... please help me...

Dear bloggie, i really had a great time last friday.... there some pic up there.. u guys are so charming.. adn girls.. u are wonderful looks like a pricess..

This night full of excitement!!!

2007-08-04T00:44:00.000+08:00

Friday night
3/8/07
12.50 a.m

DEar bloggie, tonight is really fun.. fun.. and exciting. The prefect dinner was awsome!! life band.. Adham, Redha, Dzariff, Saiful, Rizal, others that i can't remember. =.=. I'm sowie u guys.. Plus the macho band F2. They are damn great. Well bloggie, actually i want 2 write the beginning till the end. But i'm reslly tired and exhausted!!!! ouwh yeah.. Some of the boys are staying at the hotel holiday villa. they are: Adham, Acap and others..

DEar bloggie, tomorrow i will post include some pic on this night. Basiccly, all the prefect looks so charming, cute, handsome plus taiko?? ahah.. Acap yesh he wear that suit he bought it. Shaun, he looks very macho boy with his leather black jaket plus his shades!! wow!!!! hafiz looks like a taiko maa...ahah..
Saiful looks very cute with that cloth? hmmm who else?? ouwh yeah because of i'm so tired nw, i will talk about me!!

Dear bloggie, the 1st person and words come out from saiful to me is ' wuhh, laen gle u mlm nie'. ahah.. is that a compliment or insulting or...?? encouraging?? they likes my "eyes" ahah... the fate ones always looks pretty yeah..

DEar bloggie, hmm adham ask me a favour... it is can i bring that P.A system back?? well hmmm, b'coz i'm to generous i willing to help him.
Btw thanks coz help me 'angkat' that thing..

DEar bloggir, nite ,nite.. my bed already calling me.. ahah.. twink2..
lurv and always to all of u guys!!! muachx!!!

Let it b a day.....

2007-08-02T23:31:00.000+08:00

Thursday
2/8/07
11.40pm

Dear bloggie, today is kind a boring 4 me.. coz apez didnt come. And acp?? huh... sombunk!! Don't Know why.. And early in the morning, i've bring a stack of newspaper. Damn is heavy. I had a fight with nazrin. No biggie, because i've already use to it. I meant his annoyed attitude. Glad Imran settled it gently??

Dear bloggie, I have 2 stay back until 6 p.m, though its normal 4 me. i, chong n amil had really a great time. I really thankfull chong is my fwenz, i don;t know why i like her style... but still hang around with her, makes me happy and always laughing n LOL!!

DEar bloggie, tonight, i had my tuition. It was ok n exciting. May be because of i like that topic. But izzat n logesh!!! They are so..so...notty!!! expecially izzat!! hah... Good 4 him.. i kicked his leg n push him away!!! ahah.. he really annoying!!! Izat watch out!!

Dear bloggie, tomorrow is the prefect dinner. I'M going though, although i'm alibrarian. Well looking 4ward 4 tomorrow...

LURV N ALWAYS TO ALL MY DEAREST FRIENDS N MY LOVELY SISTER!!!
lURV U ALWAYS!! MUACHX3!!!!

My bloggie...??

2007-08-01T18:13:00.000+08:00

Todays~ wednesday
1/8/07
6.20 pm
Today is very freshy day. It is a full moon morning, The sun haven't rise up, Ding dong, i realize the exam is just around the corner, Ding dong, i realize i haven't start study yet.... and i starting freakin out..

Dear bloggie, 2day hanif come 2 school, yet i always disturb n play 'that' games with him! ANd today i won.Ouwh yeah, my best fwen. Known as hmm.. apez? hmm that name ok i guess. So, he as usual have the same prob, That is with add math. And our group have to write a letter. Yeah that's 4 our Engglish lesson. Quite boring though.

Dear bloggie, i wonder if the whole world and every single person have a complex problem, are we can solve it by our selves?? I wondering, if there's no moon, sky, sunset, waterfall and all the beautyful nature around us, are we gonna be the saddest person?? are we gonna be the lonelyness person ever after?? SO. do we know how 2 appriaciate all teh natute around us?? Do we realize that??

DEar bloggie, thanks to ashraff or acap. B'coz of him, now i can write all what i want to!! my feelings.. all things that i want to say.. thanks alot acp..

Dear bloggie, i have 2 go now, i want to watch "manjalara".
Love and always to all my fwenz!!! Muachx..

today's activity...

2007-07-30T17:31:00.000+08:00

today is~monday

30/7/07

5.35p.m

dear bloggie, today is really fun.. fun... and cooling day. the wind blow harshly. It's raining heavily. i cant see the sky clearly. B'coz of the cloud cover it away. i;m a bit sleepy, but stilll i hav 2 do my duty, t'chers thought us fully with passion, she teach us add math, i concentrate on what she teach us, its hard, but still it was fully with enjoyment.

dear bloggie, my physics t'chers is is plus plus a borring n annoyed!!!! i dun know why i really3 hate her class. i lurv brouwnies, i hate glass, i lurv physics, BUT i didnt enjoyed her class!!

dear bloggie, after i took a shower, i really waiting 4 msg come in, then atlast, wida sent me her text, she said she really2.. really2.. lurv me n others so much.!! our fwenship is high as the sky, big as nebula, strong as ocean, calm as the blue sky..........

Wida, Aman, Fara(ibu), irfaan(itik), afiq!!

lurv is always with u guys! muchx...

life is confusing....

2007-07-30T16:52:00.000+08:00

Life is uniqe.. The world is small.. although how fast u ran..how rich u are.. how high u be.. u will know THe truth of life..
every1 is same.. life is juz like a complete round circle.. up's and down..

happy..sad..cheerful..moody.. lonelyness.. i felt it..
fwenz is da important 4 my life!!