hurmm?? why worried?/

Dear bloggie.. Hmm yesterday.. There's 2 person makes me worried like hell.. Guess who bloggie?? ITs Haqim and Nazrin.. Well Haqim well being is kind a weird though for me.. Because he didnt reply my msg and didnt pick up my hp call... Damn I worried.. Moreover after i get that horrible news. My sis friend which is automaticly becomes 1 of my fwenz 2.. so the bad news is, matul and hana(i dint noe her) involve with accident. Matul had injured her left leg.. Patah.. scarry huh...
Then... What in my mind wondering is IS HAqim also involved with accident?? that's why i worried damn much.. Thus at the end.. He called me.. then he explain why is that.. this lol... What i Cant believe is.. He study 5 hours direct mah... that's so insane...

Dear bloggie, Nazrin case is about.. He really addicted with smokes.. huh... because of love..

Dear bloggie, Kak liana hav a bit prob with her fam... her mom.. ganas...
K till then.. cheerio..

HUrmmm continue.. UKM story..

ustad yg character mcm baby.. pja yg x letih possing.. ibu.. ayu memanjang..

pnat deyh... kaki gue.. sme kwn2 ku yg fwenly n sweety sgt2!!!!

Bol.. kamue mmg comel.. p

Di atas gunung yg mendamaikan.. tersebut alkisah.. yg sweet!!! kenangan terindah beb!!!!

Wah nie last day kat UKM... I really miss dat moment !!!


Dear bloggie, day 4 in UKM,,
Hurmm... we get along with abg2 fesi.. expecially ustad... hoho...


WEll about today... ada ank ular tryy msk in my ouz.. huh... then i bit it till penyek.. haha... im not evil kay.. AND rafiqe always called me.. this lately.. well i started to 'syg' hakim... hurmm.. why?? i dunno.. today.. yana n yuni from math sms me.. woh i miss them a lot though... dey all nak hang out with me n mama... well i guess some other time huh....

Dear bloggie, this season is rainy day.. pahang, rompin, kelantan, johor.. started to floode.. huh... pja bersyukur shah alam tak dilanda banjir... hurrmmm...
WEll i really miss abg2 fesi. prof.. and UKM.. N all my new friends.. yg sweet sgt2...
theres sum pic i want 2 show...

hey.. hey.. mexico??

Dear bloggie, papa went 1 mexico for 1 week plus 1 days.. because of work.. HUrm he departed from the KLIA on monday... lol... KInd a sad though.. then my sis as usual she has her classes.. So i will b staying home alone on the day light only... hurmm...

wee... just come back from UKM!!!!

Dear bloggie, yeah it's been a while i haven't Write my day life in here aite... Okey, let me tell some of the story in here..

Day 1 in UKM, Friday 30 nov 2007
Me, myself and Fara Aimira(ibu) check in the UKM.WE were given each 1 of us a pillow and bedsheet. After a while.. we setup our bed and make the room looks tidy..then pergi kat uniten.. my sis plak nak kena check in. Then A couple hours latter, pja n fara mkn dinner at the tent.. at 7pm.. well ofcourse we've met a few people.. i mean friends.. then At 8 pm the class started. and hurmm 1st nite pja sleep with fara... just ok.. but i heard all kind of things. dogs barking at 3 am.. ders someone ask kat luar tingkap.. " aik tak kan tak tdo lg?". freaking huh.. kind a.. The first 4 days is math subject.. Well the prof name is Cikgu Salleh.. Cara dia mengajar well 1st expression.. kind a WOW SENANGNYA NAK BWAT!!!

Day 2, Saturday 1 sAURDAY 2007.. Yeah!!! fara da jatuh hati dengan abg fesi.. his name is ridwan.. WEll his character is baby n cutey.. and his study in AGAMA ISLAM.. Wow.. tapi i admit he is charming.. though.. Next cutey abg fesi is abg faizal n abg firdaus!!! and 1st cutey of the female is kak izzati, 2nd is kak nana, 3nd is kak tipah...

Day 3, Sunday 2007..
HOho... ada some friends yang palimg cute!! ayu!! sporting!! fungky!! sempoi!! friendly max point!!
putot~ sempoi, friednly, she has a cousin a boy..,
Bol~ mke mcm ball, cute sgt2!! gelak kuat.. ske cubit pja, ske cubit pipi pja..
ayuni~ she's so preety n gorgeous, pandai!!, friendly, full of character feminim..
Amalina~ she's a good photographer, she's adorable, hyperactive, melatah, cool damn cool..
amir~ good cooker, hurm ske mencapap, hurm like 2 b pic model, his damn friendly!! and his father is hamzaid, hurm he has a intelligens sis... taking phD currently.. he also cutey.. 4 me.. he has everything.. plus hes genlemen..
Syafiq~ he is cute, well juz met him though.. ske wat rambt landak.. hoho..
Yana~ friends of ayuni.. she's preety but look matured plus clever.. so friendly.. miss all of them!!
hani~ hurmm tggi, she has a boo.. but bkn gedix nye type.. she is a sweet person n hav a sweet face..
ati~ we called her mentos girl coz.. she always ask ( teka2 colou ape mentos nie)
Joyah~ hurm her real name is hidayah.. i called her joyah coz her voice so loud.. when she try 2 explain math or ad math 2 her fwen.. bdn kecik.. mkn byk.. suara kuat..
Raziq~ never met him.. tp de ade my no coz he ask his fwen 2 mintak from me.. hur,.. cara mcm beriman??
Rai~ netball player, tggi, sweet face, ade boo, soft spoker.. friendly... has a less self confidence..
Jody~ chinese, cute, talkative, friendly, like 2 ask 2 da prof if she's not understand..
Calvyn~ good, loyal fwen towards dvua.. her fwenz.. friendly... cute.. trully!!
Dvia~ cepat demam, skiny lil gurl, pandai mengajar expecially towards fara.. friendly, ske tr pki 2dong..
Isa~ friends of amir, pendiam, shy towards gurl, ske study, kuat iman, cutey, hard working boy, x ske waste time... his face like my ex(amir)
Agogo~ wearing spec, ske flirting, oldfashion, but trully friendly, like 2 walk around in da dewan kuliah...


hurm... till then.. 2molo i will conyinue writing... tata...
lurv u guys!!! ibu!!! i wat 2say sowie very2 much 4 da sandal, aman hope u enjoy ur hols at u.k.. nitey... love u always... i'm gonna miss u all fellow easy math!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! muachxxxxxxxxxxxxx!!!!



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It's been a while.....

Dear bloogie... It's been a while i haven't bloggibg yeah.. Acctually i have a lot story to write in but times envy if i do so..

Dear bloggie, yesterday i went out with ibu, akim, n ibu's family. Well we watch ENCHANTED. It's kind a thrilling story. And today.. pja kena pergi bangi UKM. Coz pja amik course easy math. Ibu pon ikut jugak. Today also.. hakim blk kg. Hurmm.... He said dat he likes me... he want 2 be m bf... But im not ready yet.. Its just to fast.. ALthough ade rse syg sket dkt die.. Hurmm. Lets times decides yeah...

Dear bloggie, Rabu lepas all the MRSM students.. (my fwenz, my lovy, my prince)... Damn its full of excitement.. Tak terkata nak diungkapkan rase syg ... sg.. syg... dekat dey alll.....
wida, ibu, aman, itik, afiq, dyat, hakim, hafiz.....
U guys... jauh dimata dekat dihati... pja syg sgt2,.. u guys... tak terkata....


MAY GOD BLESS U ALL MY PRINSESS N PRINCE........

Can i trust the promises...??

Dear bloggie, Hey there's a person promise me that he will always be by my side. And will always reply my msg. Not just that, before this also he makes a promise... i cant remeber because of what. But still.... He just dissappear like that. I hate him.
kalau tak blh nak tunaikan janji.. jangan la buat janji dengan pja. Pja benci sgt kalau orang buat janji tapi tak boleh nak tunaikan.. I hATAE IT SO MUCH!!!!

Dear bloggie, now 3 person likes me. I mean they want me to be their gf. Huh.. But i decline. Hurm I'm not easy to accept him. What a world huh??
Dear blogie, ntan my bestest friend, She have a boyfriend. Well according the discription that Intan made, He is STAR. What I mean is he is a sweet poetry, get high marks in his exam, active in sports, and quite good looking i think. Plus this is the last year she going 2 stay in usj. I mean she gonna move next year. What a sad storry huh???

Dear bloggie, I think i have change. I dont know how to describe it. I just felt that i had change. Hurmm.. and.. my feelings.. my love towards any1 its like fade away from me...

some pic... on my opn ouz...

His name is Qisti.. Damn cute right??

Ashraff(cutey), Fikri, Aiman, Tun ( masaym), Hakim cool)

hurmm reunoin?? Tasha, zafran, Amir ( macho), Arif (sweet), aliff ( kind)

Kanak2 riang!!!!! tTun!!!

Hey.... who remember my birthday...?

Dear bloggie, You know something?? Most of all my friends at the boarding school forgot to wish me and forget when is my birthday. Except Afiq. He so so... sweet.. Not just that, my DEAREST friend also didnt even wish me at all... AT ALL!!!! Plus my bestest friend Intan ALso forget to wish me. That's harsh isn't?? huh.... How sad though.. Well I know it's not a big deal though. But as time passes us, I Then realize very1 is changging... our friendship is now dn't have any bond to tied up.. I mena to make it stable..

Dear bloggie,

When ever i read up again those poem,
It's often at time like these,
That I let myself drift upon waves of sweet reminiscene,
I wonder why am I the one is still here..?
Watching up.. Upon the sky..
All of them leaving me...
Yeah.. now I now...
JUst realize.. Although..
I already predict it's going to end up like this..

I'm hopping.. There will a? some?....
Of sweet poems for me...
All of those poems makes me happy...
Alive...
I wonder Why??
Hey.. Life is like a Farris Wheel...
I love the scenery..
When I was on top of it...
It is a wheel right..
Thus Soon or later..
I'm going down..
Far away from the bright blue sky..
that i adore and love so much..


Hey.. I know i'm loosing u all.. All of you...

Today... wow!!!!

Dear bloggie, today.. Papa friend I forgot his name lew.. But the coolest part is.. Actually he is my friend nye dad.. Its Amelia nye dad.. How shocker huh.. And i found out Acap were there.. We met him at the enterence. I thought He gonna say hye to me n my family.. And suddently.. He just walk away. Didn't say hey or anything. My mom said " haih, sombong nye acap 2 pja, bkn nye nak salam ke ape". I Replied " huh Die mmg mcm 2 mama, kalu tejumpa kt memane kew, mane nk tegur pja". My sis said " huh, nasib baek ko break ngn die pja".

Dear bloggie, Toninght... i mean this morning... damn earky mrng.. i"m so tired... I'm going cntinue... the real morning... k misss you bloggie..

Open house....

Dear bloggie, I had an open house on Thursday, 8/11/07. It was quite fun and happening though. The best part is, one of my friend it's Hakim. He came to my house on time that is 3 pm plus his ride is by taxi. OMG I felt touch and flattern. I mean he willing to saccrifise his money and time just to come to my open house. I'm so happy. Not just that, infact his the 1st person.. I mean my friend who came the earliest!!!!! How cool is that??? Damn cool babes..

Dear bloggie, hurm the list of my guess( my friend) according time..
~ Hakim
~ Tun
~ Acap
~ Then x igt aa ikut urutan....

Dear bloggie, That time my sis she baked lazangania ( is that how to spell it?) plus spagheti and caronara white sauce. All my friends like her cooks!!!! wow amazing!!!! WEll actually my sis she really good in making weatern food. How cool aite. Okey then after that it went smooth... But Acap is annoyed me.. he always embarassed me infront all my fwenz.. He said that i Dont have any talent palying guitar.. How dare him said like that. and.. Alif he live at bkt saga.. He hang out here untill 8 something.. we having a cool conversation.. rite alif..

All my love to my deary sis, Tun, Afiq, haqim, nash, hafiz, amir, arif, alif, acap and others....

Birthday....??

Dear bloggie, last night 6 november 2007... The day.. What day?? It's my birthday.. The day I come out from my mother womb.. and knowing the world.. life..
Well I wonder.. Who will it be the 1st person wshing me??
I'm hopping someone.. Then the 1st person is.. my deary sis!!! I love her so much!!! She's the only one who gave me a birthday present..She gave me a Shirt. I really love it though, black shirt and there's some arts..

Dear bloggie, today on3 pm my house is open.. haha.. Well noe i'm so sleepy.. Acap punye pasal la nie.. Ajak maen game plak.. k then bloggie.. Let just call it a night..

why other people blame me..........

Dear bloggie, Now i meant this moment.. this second.. I'm crying.. shievering.. with soundless.. Why is that so.. hey.. I'm the one type of sensitive person.. Yeah i am..

Tonight the wind is smoothly kiss my check,
The wind is my soul...
Soul to face the reality of life..
I need it..
Tonight.. it's raining heavily..
The wide anourmous sky...
Turns it's colour.. dark blue...
That's show how sad i am..
This nature...
Understand me well...
Then my friends..
This huge beutiful world...
I relly adore n admire them..
Their beutyful is realxing...

When it's start drizzling...
There comes a raining..
Then comes the thunder...
There comes the lighthning...
That's revil the truth of me...
That time's I was weak...
Cryingfor help...
Save me from this sadness...
Save me from this dark...
Someone.. please...
I cried... someone...

When ever this sadness cover me up...
I need something makes me calm...
away from this feelings....
Far away..
Thus... I shall fly up the sky...
Searching for love... calmness...
This wind...
This rain...
This waterfall..
This nature...
The important thing is...
This huge anourmous blue sky...
Makes me happy...
Although...
Just me... The only one fly up the sky....
Still it shall makes me happier then ever...
They are my true livers... This anourmous blue sky...
I shall fly up... Like an eagle...

Thus, I must throw all this sadness...
All This pain.. I shall leave it...

Life is full of sweet.. sour.. bitter... memories..
Like a ice lemon tea...

how sad..........

Dear bloggie, kisah silam... atau zaman bayi saya. Mama saya story kat saya. Yang saya masa bayi, Kuat sangat menangis. Lagi2 bila waktu nak masuk magrib dan senja. Saya sendiri pelik kenapa saya berbuat begitu ya?? Then mama saya start cerita. Time saya bayi dulu.. Saya nie lemah semangat. Kalu keluar waktu senja je. Saya akan start menangis kuat2.. menjeit2.. Sampai mama saya bagi tahu kat saya yang dia terfikir sahaja nak campak saya. Saya masa itu.. Saya macam tergamam.. Smpai macam tu seklai saya membuatkan mama saya berfikir macam tuh...

k nnt continue ye... saya da nk tdo.

worse.. damn worse..

Dear bloggie, today hakim is back from the boarding school. He just called me told me that he just arrived. wow I'm glad I have a friend like him. Know why.. Because atleast someone remember me 1st when they got back from the boarding school. And today Adham, he invited me o his open house. Wow i'm glad.

Dear bloggie, I got my marks for pfysics paper 3. I didn't understand why my marks is damn low. I really can't accept my marks... I've got only 15.It's to lo.. TO LOW!!! You wnt 2 know why my marks is damn low. Because I pass up the wrong paper.. On the exam.. I pass the paper that I want to throw it away. But.. nak buat mcam mana.. pja dah terima buku dan ruas. Tak tau macam mana paper yang pja nak buang tue tehantar time exam. The worst thing is I said to pn physics.. That my paper 3 is missing.. Then she told me to search in that plastic bag. Then I said again...
" cikgu paper sy hilang... tecabut dr paper nie kot..'
pn. phys " eyh mane ada tekoyak nie... kamu tipu la nie... kalu ada kesan koyak.. br lar nmpk mcm paper kamu tue hilang.'
me " huh.. in my heart.. i hate u damn much!!!! don't call me lier!!! kalu ada bukti saya nie tipu, tunjuk lar. maen tuduh je plak. ape kes!!!!!!!!!!"\
pn. phys ' eyh filzah.. tgk nie.. tgk... tak da kesan koyak kan.. hah kamu bohong la nie. saja je nak tipu saya kan.. "
me" tapi cikgu saya memang buat la.. siap lukis lagi.. takakn saya nak tupu kot!!! saya tau la ape yg saya tulis dalam paper exam saya tuh."
pn phys " ahh.. kalu macam tue .. awk silap hantar paper la 2.. blk nnt cuba awk cek dlm bag awk 2.. ntah2.. ada la kot...'

Dear bloggie, I really hate when somone .. expecially.. someone who really din't know me well.. call me a lier... that to much!!!! I hate that person... I will get mad u noe. because I know.. I'm Not the one who lied!!!! U damn it!!!!!!!!!!

hesy.. janji melayu..

Dear bloggie.. yesterday I went to Summit to hang out with my friends its Hanif and Nazrin. Well we've planned we have to meet at the McD in 3 pm. Not just that, i promise to them that i gone to treat them an ice-cream if they coming. And planned to look for Honey And clover 2 dvd. I really want it though. And i waited them... and waited.. untill one point.. I called Hanif.. Ask him where is he right now, He replied me..
' hah.. kat umah lgla nie..( dlm mamai)"
' la.. Kate tak pegi Summit??'
' Erk bru bgn tdo la.. so tak g la'

OMG I felt like stupid. I waited them but in the end they didn't come. First i though like them.. I mean both of them didn't come to the Summit. And coinsedence Nik and Amalina planned to watch movie(Otai). And since my plan has just ruined because of them. So I decided to join them.. But because I alredy watch Otai.. So I watch other movie The legion. Alone.. Argh... Sound sad isn't..

And after the movie end.. I called Nazrin house.. To comferm that is he really didn't go to Summit.. Then I found that he did came to Summit.. But I wonder why i didn't saw him yesterday.. huh what a day huh..

Dear bloggie.. tomorrow Fahren he gone to make an open house. He invited me just now. But I can't go because Adham also make an open house 2molo night. Wow 1 st time huh i'm gonna go to an open house at night.. huh..

Dear bloggie, Why is always our friends is not really our friends.. I mean... at first they said like this.. ' hey don;t be sad, i'm always here there for you.. I can be a good listener.. I can be ur shoulder to cry.. And i'm not gona left you alone.. forever.. Till the day I die..
Yeah.. i really trust that words though. I am.. But Now everything is change.. The person that I trust.. The person that I know well.. Is now crushing my heart down the drain.. Everything is fade away..

From my dearess friend..

Torn To Pieceses..

Everytime I looked at someone smiles,
I wonder why is that person is able to smile..
Why that person can be happy as if soaring up i the sky..
without any hesitation..
Freely roaming through the wide blue sky..
While I stuck locked inside a small cage and forever hide from everyone..
from ever opening it to free me frommy despair..
Sadness that brings oblivious to myself..
So after all this wasted time..
Wondering endlessley..
Unknowingly forever I will be lonely..
For only s worthwhile to someone..
to care for me..
But how..
No one .. no one .. and no one..

Cut of my wings that used to fly..
higher and higher..
Soaring..wanting to searching..
everywhere.. every place..
Everyspot of I know ..
not anymore..
"is it okey to let it go?"
yes it is..
cut.. tear.. rip..
name it..
I will tear it of till no more blood shall spill..
the pain.. that not no one knows..
every in everyway i try described it..
Standing still on high to root..
Hearing the sound of the wind..
blowing through softly the desire to fly..
The only thing I could do is smile..
upon the bright blue sky was once I call home..
At last the desires dies like an chamberextinguished instantly..
Smile.. just smile..and just smile..
Be the moon above..
Lastly smile...


hey he really leave me though.. fade away from me... Its okey to let it go... it's okey...

Poems yang deberi kepada saya,,

From my dearest friend.. its so sweet..

Sun shines
Stars sparkles..
Soar through the blue skies..
Flap the wings of freedom..
Think nothing you're special..
Be who u are.. Love u always..
~28/4/07~


Wave splashes on the shore..
Wind blows through the air..
Clouds swifts accross the ocean..
And the lands,
One thing remains here..
forever here..
My love to you, my dear..
~29/4/07~


Roses blooms at dawn,
High tidearive at dawn,
Sun risesat dawn,
I will walk at dawn,
And write a message..
That i care ,
That i love,
Is that you.
~30/4/07~


Wind blows on summer,
Cold breeze on winter,
Leaf witherd on fall,
Flower blooms onSpring,
But your heart blooms everytime season changes..
I really do love you..
~ 30/4/07 ~




Birds fly with wings flap gracefully,
by your ears,
Sky colourep purely blue by the naked eyes,
It's a paradise in ypur heart..
If only I was there to be with you,
Flames soar with intense..
Ashes fades to dust..
Something else frever remains..
And its belongs ours..
~ 20/6/07



Time passes with vaguely..
Far off into the distance..
But still i lost sight of something precious..
Violent and Fragile shards of memries..
Even if we both awaken from the dreams we share..
The wind blowsalong the fading scenery..
My memories go round and round..
Inside my head like a revolving lantern..
Time and time again..
But they just disapppear..
A sad merry-go-round..
I'll never forget this love.
~ 29/6/07 ~



Close your eyes..
and kiss me goodbye..
~ 14/9/07 ~

Sweet poems..frm my dearest friend..

A word From a Boy..

What do you really get..
after you have somethng that you..
want so much?
For a worthwhile of period of time..
What ever happens if someone..
was something for someone you love..
Someone you want to be with..
Togather with someone..
But what happens..
if someone that is,
someone was going to die..
bacause an unknown virus..
What will you do..

After all the times you've been together..
with someone someone you dear most..
Someone you care for..
Wanting for someone love..
And yet silently driffting away everyday not knowing..
someone taht doesn't care bout you..
But still You want to be with her you love most..
Everything you did..
nor the less someone left you alone..
in the end..

Like the boy said..
Conceal of feelings lust for love..
Smiling is the way yo keep happy..
Thus not one living soul shall know of me..
Being left and forced to be in the shadows..


This poem is kindly tell me he in suffering.. well this is life...
sour, sweet, bitter... Just like a ice lemon tea..
This the reallity..

Poems from my dearest friend to me............

Sad Nor Smile...

It feels something elsethen joy and happiness..
But instead a heartache.
Knowing you smiling,
Ohh.. is this happiness or despair starring up on the black sky..
filled with bright stars..
With the moon coverd by huge black cloud..
I wonder why?
Lets put it this way..
If the stars are shinning then its must be you..
If the moon is covered by a huge black sky..
then it must be me..
Sadness that's not showing but instead shines brightly..
by the reflection of the sunlight..
Pretending to be happy..
but to tell the truth the moon itself is ugly..
not showing other side itself..
Concealing of my feelings would be impossible..
but keeping it inside will i do the best..
So, only seeing with you is the only things..
makes me smile or sad..


he is so sweet like candy.. really.. but at that stage.. i cant.. i just like him to enjoy hislife..
mysterry guy huh??

Meaningfull n lovely day...

Saturday
20/10/07

DEar bloggie, hari ini Tun buat open house. Well pja memang excited sangat2... i miss them alot!! hurmm hakim, idayat, and other fellow. disebabkan terlalu teruja, parents Tun srill remeber me. Know what is the treatmark 4 me?? 'oUWWH awk yg dtglast year kan, yg potpet..potpet tue." Pja plak dat time malu sgt2.. hanye tuhan yg tahu..pja fikir2 blk byk sgt kew pja ckp huh last year?? ye la agaknye. Mana taknye rumah Tun lawa and ada garden engglish style gitu. So last year pja siap tangkap pic sana sini dlm rumah dia. Memang muka x malu on pja that time. ahah.. Tapi last year intan ada and havouc gila. But this year havouc mmg la havouc and happening but intan tak de my bff x de. so mcm x syok sket. huh..
So this year, pja bkn sibuk tangkap pic coz my camera batt run flat. How sad is that. As the result i'm busy playing with baby Ya. hurm ank sdare tun. She is damn cute man.Well it just like nature from myself since childhood i love babies. Well while i'm busy playing with her, out of the blue aman said 2 me 'awk maen ngn baby 2 semata-mata nak dpt attention alif (cousin Tun) itu ke?' Huh.. tak ada maknaya la. pja tak suka la kaluorg accused me like that. Tp pja sudah biasa dah dgn aman nya attitude.

In mean whila all Tun's family usik2 tun.. tanya:
'hah Tun mane gf kamu ni? Yang mana satu??'
Some1 said 'Yg bj purple tue'
Aman pon malu2 lew..
pja plak da LOL!!
haha..

Well k then i want 2 stud lew...

it's being a long time....

Thusday,
18.10.07
1.40pm


Dear bloggie, it's being along time i stop blogging. Well this week is hari raya festive. But it really not enjoying though. Because next week i'm having my final exam. Plus i've only can online when my dear sister s back from uniten. Hurm today i;m going to ibu house. having study group. OMG i really can't believe it.. i damn lazy stduying for this examanation.

Dear bloggie, last night acap, he told me his 'secret'. Damn after i knew it after he told me i get angry. U bet i am. Huh why this world has become mean. Wahat happened to all our malays?/ our religions?? Hancus.. i list up their name those who i know their secret deeply. ' Abg, acap, joe' I pray for them.. hope they stop!!!!! Ashraff, you have cute lil baby face and i know deep inside you you really intelligens, just don't ruin your precious life. Jgn cemarkan hidup acp dgn benda2 yg tak sepatutnya.

Dear bloggie, my pet bro he .. well as in mentallyhe already left me.. he didnt even text me and call me. Well that's why all this while i said everyone will cahange soon or later. But the sad thing is all this while he promised me always text me and never let me felt alone.. cry for help.. huh.. this the reality of life uh.

Dear bloggie, pja mmg ske novelist NASS ALINA NOAH. She really good in writing..
Well in 2007 she create 5 novel series its..'FLYING KISS, MY BABY GIRL, I MISS YOU, B'COZ OF U AND somethg.. i forgot lew..

kk then chiow.. luv u..

>Merdeka!!! merdeka!!

Sunday
2/9/07
Dear bloggie, i miss u.. miss u somuch.. ahah.. its been a while rite. It's not that i stop blogging. just bein busy the whole merdeka festive. I involve in the tarian.. BAGAIKAN PUTERI.. well true i'm a bit stiff though. I want to write a lot!!! BUt still time not allowed me to do so.. B4 the perform day, all of us ( me,tina.chong.nik,ira,puteri) went 4 shopping.. at mydin and summit.. ahah that day damn fun noe.. although we curse taht stupid bugger.. he still want to give RM16.50... For that pants..it's called pario i guess..

Kalau nak Rm16 still blh thn lg, nie yg tak tahan 2 50 cent still nak lg.. gler btol. That day sme org short of money. So mmg mcm ape je ar we all sumpah dat seller.. as the result we bought the other pants cost RM10. Ok then... after that we all tekocoh.. nak lari coz ira ckp:
ira: wei korunk cepat sket.. ayh putri da tggu da kat luar.
filzah: hah?? cepat nye... jap2.. nak amik resit nie..

(we all lari ar mcm kne kejar dog)

(smpi kat blakang summit, sme org tecungap2)

putri: awk, bas stop mane?

we all: hah!!!! bas stop kat deapan lar!!!!

So mmg syok ar that day.. although mmg havouc.. k then i gtg..
miss u dear sis!!

Ibu is here....... +.+

Thursday
23/8/07
1.10p.m

Dear bloggie, today and now fara, i mean its 'ibu'.. Damn i'm happy though!! Well.. Well... Afiq felt guilty coz our outing day didnt go really well. Ibu nie dah bising dah. So, i have to go now..\

To all my dear friend: ibu, cicak, itik, wida ,afiq!! i lurv u all!!!!

why?? ssh sgt ke nak kuar ngn pja?!!

Dear bloggie, i'm so frustrated!!! You know why?? This b'coz all the MRSM students is damn lazy outing with me.. Well now i know all friends is just a friends.. Ahah.. i mean they all always busy. Yeah i know. But still i really want to see them.. I really miss them. Its hardly to see them, so can't they spent only 1 day with me? IS that yo hard for them?? Is that to hard?? Only 1 day.. That's only i request for..

Dear bloggie, Intan my dear friend, she's going to move next year. Well she also at the boarding school. Teknik seremban i think. Hmmm... So what the hack though. Actually the more we love n care bout them the easier they will loose far apart from us.. FAce the fact pja, all your true and dear friend is changing. This is life.. And i as anormal human being have to live with it..

till then....

holiday.. baby..!!

sweet saturday
18/8/07
11.00


DEar bloggie, my dear auntie she admit at the hosp. suspected denggue. and yeah true holiday is coming !!!! i mean its now!!!

Dear bloggie, today we have a netball match.. anjuran kementerian ' rakan muda jiran muda'. if i not mistaken... so we won!! 3nd place.. cool or what right~~ But our reffery, she's kind a pulling at one side though. We want justice!!!

Dear bloggie, tomorrow our Taman is held a sukan organize by the kementerian. I planned to join that netball game, but the rules and regulation is only for under 15!! Its not fair though!!!!

Dear bloggie, just now i chatted with deary friend acap!! i misss him.. ahah.. plus not just that, wida, aman, ibu..... all the boarding schools, they all here!!! HOW HAPPY I AM!!!! but ibu ckp kan die ade penyakit... sight*

today and tomorrow...

thursday
16/8/07
11.50pm


DEar bloggie, its been a while rite,, Well hurmm lately i kind a busy though.You know y bloggie, well library have to clean up 1st, because the jabatan will give mark on our library lol..

Dear bloggie, today is really windy day and raining from morning till day nigth.. i'm damn happy. Wind blow switfly on my face, wind is cold, cold like ice from the mountain, mountain is high like acliff near shore, thus wind gonna make us happy and calm whenever it slap smoothly my face........

Dear bloggie, today izat he want to get my attention.. You know why bloggie?? I didnt know.. a thing. How sad. Well he really have the style, look, plus brain.. but he is to over reacted when he sees me.. as me..

Dear bloggie, today my friend cried because of that genius girl. She is to much though.!! Today acap didnt come, today apez fly his add math sub, today we had dance prac, today i;m the 1 incharge in blk guru 4 the 'thing'.. ahah.. Luckyly zul n amil willing to help me out.. Zul raelly a good helper though. Today my sis n mom having their fever.. Poor they rite.. During this hols i really have 2 start to 'DICIPLINES' my self.. You know why bloggie?/ Exam just around the corner.

Dear bloggie, my friend loges.. He really a cool guy, good looking plus clever though.. This saturday he not going to tuition coz go 2 pankor.. cool huh..

to my dear fren n my sis.. luv n wish is always by ur sides!!

My sis back!!

Sunday
12/8/07
12.00p.m

DEar bloggie, my sis is back!!! well for weekends only lol. But still I'm happy with it!! Well, yesterday is acap birthday. And hmm his mitchy gave him present. Well i just wished him.. but no response frm him.. ahah... everytime his burthday, everytime he make me annoyyed!!! huh... sigh..

Dear bloggie, my nephew nasrul currently in icu.. Damn huh.. his UPSR exam is just around the corner. I really feel sympathy for his fate..

Today i have to buy present 4 the games.. ahah... its me again riht?? kay then i gtg... tata..

lurv u sis..

i'm a happy....!!!

Wednesday
8/8/07
12.20a.m

DEar bloggie, now and tomorrow, acp seems like a weird and moody.. Although diz week is his burfday. Ahah.. Amir always make me laugh although we kind a hang out in the buss only. Well he really.. really.. entertaint me..

Dear bloggie, i felt so sad and full of sympathy to my aunt. Well as a muslim from the distance i will pray her. I really love my whole family!!

Dear bloggie, frankly i want to say i hate my physics teacher!!!!! Omg!! i really really!!! hate her!! Now as i said i'm busy with all kind of things. Currently our school participate in the programme 'kitar semula'. Koperasi and library fight to win.. ahah.. ofcourse 'bersaing gaya hdp sehat!' ahah..
Dear bloggie, i really hope that 'he' not suffer because of me.. wink.. happy ever after yeah!!

love and full of cares to all of u!! expecially my sis!! nana!!

Helping ppl is not that hard!!!!

Tuesday
7/8/07
10.15pm

Dear bloggie, i'm really really not satisfy with my mom attitude and decision!! Well her sister ( my aunt) is kind the in trouble. Latest news you know what bloggie?? my cousins her name is ain, she been affected denggue.. And ofcourse my aunt need 'some' help from my mom rite?? But my mom always and always being a selfish person.. always think herself 1st. But for me, i didnt care if i have to pick up her son every day and do this do that.. If i have a car ofcourse!! It's just don't make any sense!!!!

Dear bloggie, i really tiried think about school problem, currently.. ahah.. Not other then anything is my hw prob lar.. Sej note, bio note, and pis note.. OMG to much things to do man.. Consequently, make me stress!!! Btw The exam just around the corner... oh nooo!!!

Dear bloggie, i'm worried about my friend acap.. Well including today it's been 2 days he didnt come to school. Plus did not rep my msg!!!! Izat?? my 2tion mate.. he really2 made me piss of!! today... yesterday.. yesterday..!! i already kick his leg.. arghh!!!!

Dear bloggie, why is life full of opstical?? why??? and why do human grown up faster??? I really don't like being a grown up ppl!! it's to much pressure and responsiblelity!!!! Curently, amir hmm my 1st ex he always hang out with me lately.. Daaa... we're at the same buss!! ahah.. he always makes me laughing.. and 4get all my problem!!!

Dear bloggie, got to go now.. coz i have to study!!! Aiyooo....

To my sis.. i lurv u and miss u.. my dear fwenz... i lurv u all!!!

It's just not rite...

Monday
6/8/07
12.00 am


Dear bloddie, today is a really tiring day for me.. Well hanif n apez came 2 school, atleast they always make me cheer up every single moment.. ahah You know why?? Because thet 'game'.. it's kind a uniqe and fun fun game for me yo. Well my dear friend apez he hmm get worried to much. Don't why, may be haid? ahah no kidding, he is 'he' ok??

Dear bloggie, my nephew i call him Imi. He suspected deggue. Poor that kiddo he only 5 years old though. My auntie had a hige fever since last 2 weeks. I feel very2 sympathy for them.. ' jatuh ditimpa tangga'? i think so.. So, today nashun is my nephew also. He having his upsr, ouch that must be tough. B'coz his family having so much trouble. WEll he staying at my hoose 4 this night.

DEar bloggie, i'm having trouble with my engglish language.. So, i'm trying to improve now.. ahah..

Dear bloggie, this saturday is some1 birthday.. It is acap!!
To my dearest sis, o really miss u alot!!! my bro, hmm it's have been a long period though we didnt contact each other nor msging.. My dearest fwen, tahnks coz always being a supportive person..

A few pic prefect dinner!!

Wee... i'm almost as atall as ashraff!! well my fav colour yo.. its blue!!

Hafiz, wow u looks likle bussiness man, jas u look like corparat woman! swear.. u have that talent! Yati, looks feminem.. hehe

Tiff u look awesome!! i like that socks!! Shaun, taiko maa..
Rizal, looks very the cutte with that winked eyes!!

i'm with the macho guy!! Lelaki melayu terakhir?? haha...

Hmmm, what happened my friends?? It's blue!! ur hair..

The lurvly, gorgeous, handsome, charming guys n girlz!!

Sunday,

5/8/07

11.50pm

DEar bloggie, last time he said he gonna be my true bestfriends!! But, when i need him, he always avoid or busy with something. Plus he always make me mad!! He always make me embarassed!! Well he is not apez... Apez has his own life, so i don't want to disturb his happily life. 'He' who imeant is............. some1 who really don't know to appreaciate my kindness.... ahah...

Dear bloggie, i actually want to write a lot.. a lot... You know why bloggie?? Because i don't have any bestfwen.. i meant a girl.. paj nak luahkan semuanye kat some1 but, they all like don't bther at all... please help me...

Dear bloggie, i really had a great time last friday.... there some pic up there.. u guys are so charming.. adn girls.. u are wonderful looks like a pricess..

This night full of excitement!!!

Friday night
3/8/07
12.50 a.m

DEar bloggie, tonight is really fun.. fun.. and exciting. The prefect dinner was awsome!! life band.. Adham, Redha, Dzariff, Saiful, Rizal, others that i can't remember. =.=. I'm sowie u guys.. Plus the macho band F2. They are damn great. Well bloggie, actually i want 2 write the beginning till the end. But i'm reslly tired and exhausted!!!! ouwh yeah.. Some of the boys are staying at the hotel holiday villa. they are: Adham, Acap and others..

DEar bloggie, tomorrow i will post include some pic on this night. Basiccly, all the prefect looks so charming, cute, handsome plus taiko?? ahah.. Acap yesh he wear that suit he bought it. Shaun, he looks very macho boy with his leather black jaket plus his shades!! wow!!!! hafiz looks like a taiko maa...ahah..
Saiful looks very cute with that cloth? hmmm who else?? ouwh yeah because of i'm so tired nw, i will talk about me!!

Dear bloggie, the 1st person and words come out from saiful to me is ' wuhh, laen gle u mlm nie'. ahah.. is that a compliment or insulting or...?? encouraging?? they likes my "eyes" ahah... the fate ones always looks pretty yeah..

DEar bloggie, hmm adham ask me a favour... it is can i bring that P.A system back?? well hmmm, b'coz i'm to generous i willing to help him.
Btw thanks coz help me 'angkat' that thing..

DEar bloggir, nite ,nite.. my bed already calling me.. ahah.. twink2..
lurv and always to all of u guys!!! muachx!!!

Let it b a day.....

Thursday
2/8/07
11.40pm

Dear bloggie, today is kind a boring 4 me.. coz apez didnt come. And acp?? huh... sombunk!! Don't Know why.. And early in the morning, i've bring a stack of newspaper. Damn is heavy. I had a fight with nazrin. No biggie, because i've already use to it. I meant his annoyed attitude. Glad Imran settled it gently??

Dear bloggie, I have 2 stay back until 6 p.m, though its normal 4 me. i, chong n amil had really a great time. I really thankfull chong is my fwenz, i don;t know why i like her style... but still hang around with her, makes me happy and always laughing n LOL!!

DEar bloggie, tonight, i had my tuition. It was ok n exciting. May be because of i like that topic. But izzat n logesh!!! They are so..so...notty!!! expecially izzat!! hah... Good 4 him.. i kicked his leg n push him away!!! ahah.. he really annoying!!! Izat watch out!!

Dear bloggie, tomorrow is the prefect dinner. I'M going though, although i'm alibrarian. Well looking 4ward 4 tomorrow...

LURV N ALWAYS TO ALL MY DEAREST FRIENDS N MY LOVELY SISTER!!!
lURV U ALWAYS!! MUACHX3!!!!

My bloggie...??

Todays~ wednesday
1/8/07
6.20 pm
Today is very freshy day. It is a full moon morning, The sun haven't rise up, Ding dong, i realize the exam is just around the corner, Ding dong, i realize i haven't start study yet.... and i starting freakin out..

Dear bloggie, 2day hanif come 2 school, yet i always disturb n play 'that' games with him! ANd today i won.Ouwh yeah, my best fwen. Known as hmm.. apez? hmm that name ok i guess. So, he as usual have the same prob, That is with add math. And our group have to write a letter. Yeah that's 4 our Engglish lesson. Quite boring though.

Dear bloggie, i wonder if the whole world and every single person have a complex problem, are we can solve it by our selves?? I wondering, if there's no moon, sky, sunset, waterfall and all the beautyful nature around us, are we gonna be the saddest person?? are we gonna be the lonelyness person ever after?? SO. do we know how 2 appriaciate all teh natute around us?? Do we realize that??

DEar bloggie, thanks to ashraff or acap. B'coz of him, now i can write all what i want to!! my feelings.. all things that i want to say.. thanks alot acp..

Dear bloggie, i have 2 go now, i want to watch "manjalara".
Love and always to all my fwenz!!! Muachx..

today's activity...

today is~monday

30/7/07

5.35p.m

dear bloggie, today is really fun.. fun... and cooling day. the wind blow harshly. It's raining heavily. i cant see the sky clearly. B'coz of the cloud cover it away. i;m a bit sleepy, but stilll i hav 2 do my duty, t'chers thought us fully with passion, she teach us add math, i concentrate on what she teach us, its hard, but still it was fully with enjoyment.

dear bloggie, my physics t'chers is is plus plus a borring n annoyed!!!! i dun know why i really3 hate her class. i lurv brouwnies, i hate glass, i lurv physics, BUT i didnt enjoyed her class!!

dear bloggie, after i took a shower, i really waiting 4 msg come in, then atlast, wida sent me her text, she said she really2.. really2.. lurv me n others so much.!! our fwenship is high as the sky, big as nebula, strong as ocean, calm as the blue sky..........

Wida, Aman, Fara(ibu), irfaan(itik), afiq!!

lurv is always with u guys! muchx...

life is confusing....

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Life is uniqe.. The world is small.. although how fast u ran..how rich u are.. how high u be.. u will know THe truth of life..
every1 is same.. life is juz like a complete round circle.. up's and down..

happy..sad..cheerful..moody.. lonelyness.. i felt it..
fwenz is da important 4 my life!!