undefined....

Dear bloggie, as writen on the title my feelings right now is undefined. Don't know how to describe it by words.. Do not know.. whether i'm mad, full of despair, exuberant,tired of lies,................

Why almost all men out there is caring and sweet talker. If they always.................. hurmm.. my mind can't translate the informations or thoughts...

Hanif, i do agree... this feelings make me hyperventilate. Relationships is hard. Its like breathing with no oxygen supply. Yeah.. I hate this feelings. It's torturing!!! It's not fun having this kind of feeling you see.

eNlightenment..

Dear bloggie..
I couldn't illustrate what i'm thinking right now. As if, I want to write all the thoughts in my head at one time. Let us follow the hierarchy..

About my real dad:
Hurmm.. His physically just like me except he his a man in his late 44th. I could say he his now a very successful man, husband, father. Yeah.. although i never stay with him ever within 19 years.. Well what the hack. I didn't mind at all coz i have my loving stepfather!!! I stay with my mom and him since i was 3 years old.. yeah..

So, he his (real dad) ..

1. Before this he has problem control his anger, couldn't manage his own life.

2. He has been cheated. In a lot of ways.. business.. in personal life..

3. He really have his ups and downs. Years ago..

4. He work hard to gain this position.

5. He extreme dislike wasting. Food expecially.

6. He earn Brabus! It cost like 1 big banglo i think.

7. He has his own company!!

8. He has everythg right now. A happy family..


Thus, conclusion is...
every single person will change from worst to good, Good 2 better, Better 2 great!
But still every person in this world could change from great to worst. Believe me there is.
Infact,
My perspectives now has change towards the people who easily out going and hang out types. Just to let u know, most of the people who doing the bad and unmoral thing is the goos and innocent face. Yeah so snap out if it.. don't judge a book by its cover. Don't be fool around. get to know him or his more first.

Life do complicated..
life doesn't always go how u planned it is..
Life is short.. enjoy yourself but draw the line.. do not exceeds the line.

Relationship is totally complicated..
You do not know who's the one for you..
You do not know what will went wrong or right in the future..
You do not know if u choose the wrong person..
The only thing that u could do is.....
Let the times tell,
let it flow through you..
Let it be..

p/s; Do appreciate all people around you.. Do love them as much they love you.

Genting trip...

arrive at the Awana hotel





we ain't ride that..





4D place






Shoot by emal with the big camera






we're in reindeer cruiser




At skyway station





Floating huh..




1st day in indoor games




Excitation face 0+0



dear bloggie,

we went to genting last thursday n friday. It went well and trully enjoying.. let the pictures tell you the journey and the story. 2days 1 night. RM 44.30 outdoor theme park+skyway ride up and down+bus. Rm159 1 night per room. We ate Tuna, sardin, bread. My family bought cake for our friend birthday paan. Fiqa bought cake for him oso, secrets recipe u noe.

later...

an eye opener..

Dear bloggie,





I do not know why i feel so suffocated... life is unpredictable.. u cant control yourself.... obviously im being despair here... do not know why..do not know what is the reasons behind this. Really.. I just find out and conceive that we could not be the person we want to be. i mean not being ourself just to make other people happy.I try to done that, it felt like i'm living in a lie. Yeah it felt in a cage. There's no oxygen supply. I can't spread my wings flape through the blue sky. it really felt nice if u an eagle. U own the sky!!!!

I love being me.. myself.. siti filzah.. warmth heart loving person.. its me.. just me and my lovers.. when i use my sis account for FB. I add my kmk peeps. I found that they really like to 'broadcast' their daily lifestyle and their loving story to public. For me it is dangerous to let other people know on what your doing and with who.. It is just not right using your Fb just for that reasons. They should do something relevan bout the technologies provided.(i sound really melancholy). I am...

new ifo

Did u guys know that sugar is one of the main source(sumber utama), so it is trully valueable now. Since we short off sugar. So There are other alternative producing sugar which is from stevia ( a herb). Wake up we are running of sugar, that is why the market price has increased.

other thing..

Why are guys like 2 be a casanova or pretend to be a nice and gentleman.. toward the girls. And pretend they are single but THEY ARE REALLY NOT!! I hate lies.. i hate made up story. i hate to be the person who show my sympathy toward the people who shouldn't deserves one..

Ok i need to do my notes.. later..

yesterday.....

Dear bloggie, So yesterday... It was fun.. aman join us skating. Guess what she hurt her buts.. ngeee... I'm not supposed 2 help her get up coz she waiting for this cute and gentleman 'abg' to help her out.. Honestly, i also felt like want to fell off my buts..ngee... But seriously he is really cute and does have a nice smooth move.

The people who came is aman(mybff), fiqa,ieqmal,farhan,fiza,rin.... Yeah and there's 1 guy i duuno his name coz he is fiqa's senior..

So, i and aman went for widow shopping. We found this kardigen?? ( i do not know what it called) It is eye catching and cost Rm60. For us it is way too expensive though.

I cant upload any pictures!!!!!! i think my camera memory card had been infected by virus.. wawawawa......

my pLan iS.....

Dear bloggie, me and my kmk peeps will hang out at pyramid doing ice skating and other stuff.. Yeah other stuff on this monday..!!!!! i'm so freaking excited bout it... And on this thurds and fri we will be going 2 genting!!!!!! My family will be following us.. coz they help us book the hotel and all...

I am so going 2 enjoy my hols!!!! yeepy... but cant wait 2 hang out with hanif and aman... l.O.V.E uguys.........

i don't kNow wHy....

Dear blogggie, why why why why we cant having a normal relationship?? just like boys and girlfriend.. hving fun and enjoy our teenage life.. It is so hard to stay single without affect other people feelings... it is so hard..

Well apparantly my dear friend Danial ask me the question to me.. Tonight on 9/1/10... i have to say no.. there it started.. i hurt his feelings.. and now he didnt reply my text.. great..

this is for you..
genuine to you..

Life is like a farris wheel...
full of ups and down..
full of colour...
full of passion...
full of love inside it...
But there's still sweet sour of it...
strong taste of sweet, sour, bitterness...
It is not simple and easy as u think....
Not always run smoothly as u plan...

love is undefined...
u think its sweet..
still there are sourness inside it...
u'll never know what awaits u ahead..
u can't predict the future...
u'll never know who ur partner would be...
everything is possible...

Thus.. for above reasons...
i couldn't make up my mind...

it's HoLs tIme!!!!

hey.. hey..
I'm back!!!! I'M back for 2 weeks.. Thank god.. i could least rest after the exams..
A lot of things going on.. I haven't have the time to blog out..

Let me start 2 weeks be4 our UPS examination. Well OBviously every single person is busy revising and finishing up their assingment.. So at that night i was in my friend room (fiqa). We were busy revising.. Than on 11.30pm suddenly we heard sum1 screaming 'kebakaran.. kebakaran..' For a second i thought its true. But then there are a few girls said it's just a fire drill training session. So me, fiqa, ziera,alwani..we were blabbering.. ' hesy nak wat benda nie nie mlm 2 buta.. da la esk schedule full.. hesy ntah pape ntah..'

So, we went down to the gathering place of block B residents. And i just realize i'm from block C residents. Then i ran to my gathering place.. Well i was caught up by warden.. Damn.. I have 2 explain and apologized. Fine..fine.. don't care at all..

So after the checking up all the residents attendants. Allof us are force to 2 dataran. Long story came short: We saw a shower meteor, than 1 girl suddenly starts 2 screaming.. And then the fire fighter, ustaz, and a few boys including Idris stats to AZAN and recite ayat kursi and other surah.. But then things are going out of control. coz this things is spreading rapidly throughout the girls. We we're ask to go to masjid.untill 1.30 am the THING won't stop. For those who wasn't infected we're ask to go 2 our room ad recite surah Yassin. b4 we went 2 bed.

Nasib baik i'm not 1 of the infected girl. So we we're ask to went back by group. We did.. Thus, i have 2 take all mystuff n books the next morning at fiqa's room. All of us tried not to talk about that. Jangan Tegur la katekan..
For the rest of that week. we are forbiden to go out of our block after Maghrib. and right now things went well..

chiow2..