it's not that Easy...

Assalamualaikum...

Hey there.. hum..hum... it's been a while folks i haven'y update any article yeah..

Today is exhausting day ever.. This whole weeks is my exam week. It's not because of the exam made worn out. The thing is, at my University their system is out dated ... Seriously IT IS people.

Their admin people are so slow and as if, they trying so hard to make students life more difficult... Hmm no wonder their people no progress, their facility is outdated.. Ohh my my...

Just imagine there's this Dean (so called), loves to make students life miserable. Our group is trying to get his sign coz of this one issue, and with love he make a fuss. He demand 52 students gather all and see him and make a letter each one of us .. then he will sign... OMG!!! what kind of people is this.. from 9am (after modul 1 xm end) until 12.30 noon we have to this unnecessary thing..

When i live at this country, i really be grateful that i live in Malaysia seriously people. Now i know how hard life is. How hard to earn money, how fuss to pay all the electricity. Here.. Now.... i learn that before we choose a place to live, we have to ask n considered all kind of things. Safety, the bills, in all direction we have to try minimize using money to buy things that are not important.

Students be grateful .. and always do pray for your family health,wealth n iman for THE DAY..

Ya allah kuatkanlah hambaMU ini...

Aku hanyalah insan yg kerdil...

ampunilah dosaku dan kedua ibu bapa ku dan sahabat2 ku..

Murahkanlah rezeki kami Ya Rabb..

all Mix up

Assalamualaikum...

It's been a while i haven't post any update yeah..

Thousands of things to tell to share... to laugh.. to cry.. to love..

It is just depend on my diligent though..

I want to wish congratulation to Badiuzzaman.. my dear senior who just got married.. Indeed i'm truly shock when i just noted that he's married.. wow!! Hurm 23 yrs old.. okay i guess..

I've start my 2nd semester in USU and now i do have juniors. wink2.. hehehheheh

my result for the 1st semester is not as i hope it will turn out. Yeah.. it is definitely not that easy to get 3 you know. I do try my very best at that moment. I guess i have to try super duper harder.

Well it has been 1 week since i'm in Medan. Until now, im having on and off fever + flu heavily + sore throat +dizzy = me that are weak and not able to concentrate my study very well...

Poor me, it's okay than. It is a test for me not to surrender heheh...

Yesterday is my dear friend birthday Nazrin. I wonder how is he. Hurmm..

Hope you doing well my friend. Thanks for your advise all this while although we rarely catch up.

I would love to give some advise.

~ If we want to have a great friend (sahabat) i mean a real friend that could be our mother to nag, b our sister to rely on. Thus do find friend that devout.

Friends.. surrounding.. do give an effect to our personality.

through times..

we meet and tie a connection...called friendship..

every now and then..

we meet new people and tag along with them..

after some time..

without our eye on..

we're not that close to the people who use to be close with us..

But only some will remain by your side.. SOME..

other's are just a part our daily life social..

to be loved by our Greatest Allah s.w.t is everyone wishes..

Thus, do love our self and His creation..

and get close to Him. by every meaning..

~solah never forget, bertahmid, berzikir..

Jikalau anda menjaga hubungan baik anda dgn Allah s.w.t maka Allah akan menjaga hubungan baik kamu sesama manusia..

Kita hanya usaha DIa yang menentukan segalanya. Jadi, mintalah kepada NYA...

Maafkan diriku yang khilaf ini..

Yang sering alpa dengan duniawi dan kenikmatan yang dihadiahkan ALlah kepadaku..

~ SurRogAte ~

Dear bloggie,

its been a while i haven't update my blog. Pity my blog.There's so many event happened through out my life in Medan. Bittersweetness of life in Medan.. Live. Learn. Keep on learning and moving forward. Sometimes, it took us to make a few wrong turn in order to understand the real meaning of that situation itself.

I always say 2 myself.. "Hati dan perasaan hadir tanpa diundang"..

WE only plans.. Allah know's better than we.. Thus, everything happens, there's a reason for it.

How can a person attracted to the other person just in one day? How can it happened?We don;t know why. Or why is it so complicated just to met the right ones. How can a person fall in love with the person at ones? we never know the answer.. Because the answer and the question we ask ourself is lies within ourself.. No one else.. So ask urself where is the love?

In my point of view. I rather let it be.. Juat follow the flow. If there's sparks here and there, u'll know his/her the one. We just have to keep moving forward.

What i realize all this while is, every where we go..

~ we gonna break and make anew relationship..

Regardless, as a friend or a lover...

U'll gonna miss the one that has been ur past..

But u'll be excited to get to know new people.. environment..

There'll be memories created within our relationship..

Cherish it.. rejoice them..

~ for everything you have missed

u have gained something else,

n for everything u gain.. u lose sumthing else..

It is about ur outlook towards life..

You can either regret or rejoice ..

P/s i love Allah s.w.t for everything.. my family for supporting all this while.. and my beloved Medan friends.. Once i find the right one.. I'll take a very gud care of that person heart.. regardless. Meanwhile, study is my priority.. Do appreciate ppl around u..

continue studying..

Living Of LoVe

For just one chance to find
Love was someone that you loved to find
For just the sense to try
To walk ahead and leave the pain behind
If the days aren’t easy and the nights are rough
When they ask you what you’re thinking of
Say love, say for me love

Your heart says not again
What kind of mess have you got me in
But when the feelings there
It can lift you up and take you anywhere
But the gravel beneath you and the limbs above
If anybody asks you where your coming from
Say love, say for me love

Say yes we live uncertainty
And disappointments have to be
And everyday we might be facing more
And yes we live in desperate times
But fading words and shaking rhymes
There’s only one thing here worth hoping for
With Lucifer beneath you and God above
If either one of them asks you what your living of
Say love, say for me love

~DoWncaSt~

Morning peeps..

i'm feeling very deeply down..

what i've planned before i came here, has vanished..

i didn't planned that i would feel lost.. i didn't planned i would be this sorrow..

i didn't planned i'm gonna have a close guy friend..

I didn't assign for any post in any clubs..

Myplan is.. stay my head focus on the game..

No any disturbance...

Ya Allah.. kuatkanlah hambaMu ini...

Jgnlah ujianMu ini akan memberi efek kpd pelajaran ku..

Niat ku hanya satu..

Belajar dan grad..And have a nice job to support my family...

What we planned, hardly follows as we plan...

I'm not strong enough to deal with this...yet

i'm not the type of person who share my sorrow with others...

i'm not like that..

The only therapeutic for me to engulf my sorrowness is only by writing...

How i wish.. i could let it out...

How i wish.. at first place.. I'm a decent person and not that outstanding so that i could follow my game plan..

I'm speechless... One thing my request..

Jagalah hubungan baik kami Ya Allah..

Hanya Engkau Maha Mengetahui apa yg ku rasakan saat ini....

I never cried this often....

sedihhh.. penat.. tak larat.. tolonglah

~enigma~

Hey there folks. I just wondering why? Why suddently things change drasticly.. What are the caused that trigger this changes.I wonder. But whatever his action. I believe he has his own reason.. I do need an explanation!!! Arghhhh... It's not i can't focus.. But yeah.. people ussually said ' jiwa kacau'.. WOW!!!

Change is needed.. A gap is needed.. So do an explanation though. enigma... Life.. Karma.. Fate all has it links.. Yeah..

~Veiled~

Dear bloggie, ahah.. it's been a while haven't updating my blog. Well 4 the entry i would wish 4 the Muslim 'selamat hari raya qurban'.. On top of that, best wishes and best of luck in our upcoming xm for FKG-10. 6 days left. Wow.. time is running past by though. Very seldom i would post something about feelings and what i feel. Ussually i'll kept to myself only.. But dunno why, out of sudden my hand easilly type..

I've fallen for someone. Haha.. How? Who? its undefined. At first, i try not to fall in love with anyone. Because, the least that i could do for the 1st year in USU is try to stabilize myself either in study nor my life. What could i do. I'm just a normal girl that have feelings. Still, i prefer to kept it to myself and have a control on my feelings. If i said, i'm not jealous when other girl approach him, that would be a lie. Honestly, my jealousy is beyond my capability. Time to time i manage to control. I love when he ask 'are u ok?' how r u doing?' although it is just short and simple ques, i appreciate it a lot. Coz the small things like that matter we ussually take 4 granted. Human tend to forget the small pieces of intimacy in life.

Everytime i'm praying, I would say 'jagalah hbgn baik antara kami'.. We as human could plan ahead, still Allah the one who decides. We could done our best, pray and tawakal~ Ya Allah, berikanlah hambamu kekuatan