It's been a while.....

Dear bloogie... It's been a while i haven't bloggibg yeah.. Acctually i have a lot story to write in but times envy if i do so..

Dear bloggie, yesterday i went out with ibu, akim, n ibu's family. Well we watch ENCHANTED. It's kind a thrilling story. And today.. pja kena pergi bangi UKM. Coz pja amik course easy math. Ibu pon ikut jugak. Today also.. hakim blk kg. Hurmm.... He said dat he likes me... he want 2 be m bf... But im not ready yet.. Its just to fast.. ALthough ade rse syg sket dkt die.. Hurmm. Lets times decides yeah...

Dear bloggie, Rabu lepas all the MRSM students.. (my fwenz, my lovy, my prince)... Damn its full of excitement.. Tak terkata nak diungkapkan rase syg ... sg.. syg... dekat dey alll.....
wida, ibu, aman, itik, afiq, dyat, hakim, hafiz.....
U guys... jauh dimata dekat dihati... pja syg sgt2,.. u guys... tak terkata....


MAY GOD BLESS U ALL MY PRINSESS N PRINCE........

Can i trust the promises...??

Dear bloggie, Hey there's a person promise me that he will always be by my side. And will always reply my msg. Not just that, before this also he makes a promise... i cant remeber because of what. But still.... He just dissappear like that. I hate him.
kalau tak blh nak tunaikan janji.. jangan la buat janji dengan pja. Pja benci sgt kalau orang buat janji tapi tak boleh nak tunaikan.. I hATAE IT SO MUCH!!!!

Dear bloggie, now 3 person likes me. I mean they want me to be their gf. Huh.. But i decline. Hurm I'm not easy to accept him. What a world huh??
Dear blogie, ntan my bestest friend, She have a boyfriend. Well according the discription that Intan made, He is STAR. What I mean is he is a sweet poetry, get high marks in his exam, active in sports, and quite good looking i think. Plus this is the last year she going 2 stay in usj. I mean she gonna move next year. What a sad storry huh???

Dear bloggie, I think i have change. I dont know how to describe it. I just felt that i had change. Hurmm.. and.. my feelings.. my love towards any1 its like fade away from me...

some pic... on my opn ouz...

His name is Qisti.. Damn cute right??

Ashraff(cutey), Fikri, Aiman, Tun ( masaym), Hakim cool)

hurmm reunoin?? Tasha, zafran, Amir ( macho), Arif (sweet), aliff ( kind)

Kanak2 riang!!!!! tTun!!!

Hey.... who remember my birthday...?

Dear bloggie, You know something?? Most of all my friends at the boarding school forgot to wish me and forget when is my birthday. Except Afiq. He so so... sweet.. Not just that, my DEAREST friend also didnt even wish me at all... AT ALL!!!! Plus my bestest friend Intan ALso forget to wish me. That's harsh isn't?? huh.... How sad though.. Well I know it's not a big deal though. But as time passes us, I Then realize very1 is changging... our friendship is now dn't have any bond to tied up.. I mena to make it stable..

Dear bloggie,

When ever i read up again those poem,
It's often at time like these,
That I let myself drift upon waves of sweet reminiscene,
I wonder why am I the one is still here..?
Watching up.. Upon the sky..
All of them leaving me...
Yeah.. now I now...
JUst realize.. Although..
I already predict it's going to end up like this..

I'm hopping.. There will a? some?....
Of sweet poems for me...
All of those poems makes me happy...
Alive...
I wonder Why??
Hey.. Life is like a Farris Wheel...
I love the scenery..
When I was on top of it...
It is a wheel right..
Thus Soon or later..
I'm going down..
Far away from the bright blue sky..
that i adore and love so much..


Hey.. I know i'm loosing u all.. All of you...

Today... wow!!!!

Dear bloggie, today.. Papa friend I forgot his name lew.. But the coolest part is.. Actually he is my friend nye dad.. Its Amelia nye dad.. How shocker huh.. And i found out Acap were there.. We met him at the enterence. I thought He gonna say hye to me n my family.. And suddently.. He just walk away. Didn't say hey or anything. My mom said " haih, sombong nye acap 2 pja, bkn nye nak salam ke ape". I Replied " huh Die mmg mcm 2 mama, kalu tejumpa kt memane kew, mane nk tegur pja". My sis said " huh, nasib baek ko break ngn die pja".

Dear bloggie, Toninght... i mean this morning... damn earky mrng.. i"m so tired... I'm going cntinue... the real morning... k misss you bloggie..

Open house....

Dear bloggie, I had an open house on Thursday, 8/11/07. It was quite fun and happening though. The best part is, one of my friend it's Hakim. He came to my house on time that is 3 pm plus his ride is by taxi. OMG I felt touch and flattern. I mean he willing to saccrifise his money and time just to come to my open house. I'm so happy. Not just that, infact his the 1st person.. I mean my friend who came the earliest!!!!! How cool is that??? Damn cool babes..

Dear bloggie, hurm the list of my guess( my friend) according time..
~ Hakim
~ Tun
~ Acap
~ Then x igt aa ikut urutan....

Dear bloggie, That time my sis she baked lazangania ( is that how to spell it?) plus spagheti and caronara white sauce. All my friends like her cooks!!!! wow amazing!!!! WEll actually my sis she really good in making weatern food. How cool aite. Okey then after that it went smooth... But Acap is annoyed me.. he always embarassed me infront all my fwenz.. He said that i Dont have any talent palying guitar.. How dare him said like that. and.. Alif he live at bkt saga.. He hang out here untill 8 something.. we having a cool conversation.. rite alif..

All my love to my deary sis, Tun, Afiq, haqim, nash, hafiz, amir, arif, alif, acap and others....

Birthday....??

Dear bloggie, last night 6 november 2007... The day.. What day?? It's my birthday.. The day I come out from my mother womb.. and knowing the world.. life..
Well I wonder.. Who will it be the 1st person wshing me??
I'm hopping someone.. Then the 1st person is.. my deary sis!!! I love her so much!!! She's the only one who gave me a birthday present..She gave me a Shirt. I really love it though, black shirt and there's some arts..

Dear bloggie, today on3 pm my house is open.. haha.. Well noe i'm so sleepy.. Acap punye pasal la nie.. Ajak maen game plak.. k then bloggie.. Let just call it a night..

why other people blame me..........

Dear bloggie, Now i meant this moment.. this second.. I'm crying.. shievering.. with soundless.. Why is that so.. hey.. I'm the one type of sensitive person.. Yeah i am..

Tonight the wind is smoothly kiss my check,
The wind is my soul...
Soul to face the reality of life..
I need it..
Tonight.. it's raining heavily..
The wide anourmous sky...
Turns it's colour.. dark blue...
That's show how sad i am..
This nature...
Understand me well...
Then my friends..
This huge beutiful world...
I relly adore n admire them..
Their beutyful is realxing...

When it's start drizzling...
There comes a raining..
Then comes the thunder...
There comes the lighthning...
That's revil the truth of me...
That time's I was weak...
Cryingfor help...
Save me from this sadness...
Save me from this dark...
Someone.. please...
I cried... someone...

When ever this sadness cover me up...
I need something makes me calm...
away from this feelings....
Far away..
Thus... I shall fly up the sky...
Searching for love... calmness...
This wind...
This rain...
This waterfall..
This nature...
The important thing is...
This huge anourmous blue sky...
Makes me happy...
Although...
Just me... The only one fly up the sky....
Still it shall makes me happier then ever...
They are my true livers... This anourmous blue sky...
I shall fly up... Like an eagle...

Thus, I must throw all this sadness...
All This pain.. I shall leave it...

Life is full of sweet.. sour.. bitter... memories..
Like a ice lemon tea...

how sad..........

Dear bloggie, kisah silam... atau zaman bayi saya. Mama saya story kat saya. Yang saya masa bayi, Kuat sangat menangis. Lagi2 bila waktu nak masuk magrib dan senja. Saya sendiri pelik kenapa saya berbuat begitu ya?? Then mama saya start cerita. Time saya bayi dulu.. Saya nie lemah semangat. Kalu keluar waktu senja je. Saya akan start menangis kuat2.. menjeit2.. Sampai mama saya bagi tahu kat saya yang dia terfikir sahaja nak campak saya. Saya masa itu.. Saya macam tergamam.. Smpai macam tu seklai saya membuatkan mama saya berfikir macam tuh...

k nnt continue ye... saya da nk tdo.

worse.. damn worse..

Dear bloggie, today hakim is back from the boarding school. He just called me told me that he just arrived. wow I'm glad I have a friend like him. Know why.. Because atleast someone remember me 1st when they got back from the boarding school. And today Adham, he invited me o his open house. Wow i'm glad.

Dear bloggie, I got my marks for pfysics paper 3. I didn't understand why my marks is damn low. I really can't accept my marks... I've got only 15.It's to lo.. TO LOW!!! You wnt 2 know why my marks is damn low. Because I pass up the wrong paper.. On the exam.. I pass the paper that I want to throw it away. But.. nak buat mcam mana.. pja dah terima buku dan ruas. Tak tau macam mana paper yang pja nak buang tue tehantar time exam. The worst thing is I said to pn physics.. That my paper 3 is missing.. Then she told me to search in that plastic bag. Then I said again...
" cikgu paper sy hilang... tecabut dr paper nie kot..'
pn. phys " eyh mane ada tekoyak nie... kamu tipu la nie... kalu ada kesan koyak.. br lar nmpk mcm paper kamu tue hilang.'
me " huh.. in my heart.. i hate u damn much!!!! don't call me lier!!! kalu ada bukti saya nie tipu, tunjuk lar. maen tuduh je plak. ape kes!!!!!!!!!!"\
pn. phys ' eyh filzah.. tgk nie.. tgk... tak da kesan koyak kan.. hah kamu bohong la nie. saja je nak tipu saya kan.. "
me" tapi cikgu saya memang buat la.. siap lukis lagi.. takakn saya nak tupu kot!!! saya tau la ape yg saya tulis dalam paper exam saya tuh."
pn phys " ahh.. kalu macam tue .. awk silap hantar paper la 2.. blk nnt cuba awk cek dlm bag awk 2.. ntah2.. ada la kot...'

Dear bloggie, I really hate when somone .. expecially.. someone who really din't know me well.. call me a lier... that to much!!!! I hate that person... I will get mad u noe. because I know.. I'm Not the one who lied!!!! U damn it!!!!!!!!!!

hesy.. janji melayu..

Dear bloggie.. yesterday I went to Summit to hang out with my friends its Hanif and Nazrin. Well we've planned we have to meet at the McD in 3 pm. Not just that, i promise to them that i gone to treat them an ice-cream if they coming. And planned to look for Honey And clover 2 dvd. I really want it though. And i waited them... and waited.. untill one point.. I called Hanif.. Ask him where is he right now, He replied me..
' hah.. kat umah lgla nie..( dlm mamai)"
' la.. Kate tak pegi Summit??'
' Erk bru bgn tdo la.. so tak g la'

OMG I felt like stupid. I waited them but in the end they didn't come. First i though like them.. I mean both of them didn't come to the Summit. And coinsedence Nik and Amalina planned to watch movie(Otai). And since my plan has just ruined because of them. So I decided to join them.. But because I alredy watch Otai.. So I watch other movie The legion. Alone.. Argh... Sound sad isn't..

And after the movie end.. I called Nazrin house.. To comferm that is he really didn't go to Summit.. Then I found that he did came to Summit.. But I wonder why i didn't saw him yesterday.. huh what a day huh..

Dear bloggie.. tomorrow Fahren he gone to make an open house. He invited me just now. But I can't go because Adham also make an open house 2molo night. Wow 1 st time huh i'm gonna go to an open house at night.. huh..

Dear bloggie, Why is always our friends is not really our friends.. I mean... at first they said like this.. ' hey don;t be sad, i'm always here there for you.. I can be a good listener.. I can be ur shoulder to cry.. And i'm not gona left you alone.. forever.. Till the day I die..
Yeah.. i really trust that words though. I am.. But Now everything is change.. The person that I trust.. The person that I know well.. Is now crushing my heart down the drain.. Everything is fade away..