its called something...

Dear bloggie, it's been awhile right now. I've read my dearest friend post, i trully love what he wrote." when u love someone,even if they dont accept u,a small piece of ur heart will always be with them even when theyre gone."

It is absolutely true. Me myself having a difficulty to forget 100% my sweet memories with him. Yeah. Whenever i look in his page, It hurts.. seen him happily with his partner. That's me.. It tooks time to forget. But still, how fast i ran, how calm i am, how long it takes me to forget all the memories.. Still and all, atleast a piece from the memories will remain inside me myself.

I could conclude this one important thing in our life. All OF us

know life is like a ferris wheel, we cant control our position, Whether

at the top or at the bottom. Howbeit, it's our fate. To find a life partner is very hard. You have to accept the goods and the bads of yiur parner without any whinning nor affliction. To find the one, you sure have been through some serious relationship. Every journey we took, there's always a new relationship created without been plan. Every relationship we going through have their own story to tell. Yeah..........
being love n fall in love with someone is hard. To trust someone 100% is arduous.

Right now, appreciate what you have. Appriciate every single moment you have with the loves one.................Every journey, it tells its own story. Full of sweet n bitterness. Thats life.

1 year.........

One year had just fly by. I already finished my matriculation programe 2 weeks ago. Somehow, this laziness of me engulf, made me hard to write anything in my blog. Sorry. It's my weakness. I could write a whole page long of my experience been a matrics student. But i'm not in the mood of it.

So maybe later..

one time

Dear bloggie, i haven't write anything lately.. Not because i don't have anythig to story about. just don't have the time to do that.

I'm very sorry for aman. Takziah foe her and her family. Her dad just passed away 3 days ago. That is the reason why i came back to Selangor. Just to see her and to comfort her.

My exams just around the corner. i'm so cuak right now. I really want to study right now, while waiting for acap finished his jumaat prayer. But i can't focus.. To much to think of.. Man life is always complicated.

Well, 1 week before, me,fiqa,alwani and zira hang out with nazrin and his friends. Yeah it's so freakin fun n full of enthusiasm. I went there to buy someone's birthday present. Someone special. Yeah... I bought topman and from somerset bay for my beloved sis nana!!!

Well, i never fell in love deeply before.. But now we are just friend. It is toturing but i'd could accept it. My priority now is study .... study.... and get myself into U and the course i wanted to. Life must go on.. I just hate when i'm alone, then i'll start to think about the unnessasary thing. I hate when i'm expecting a text or call from him. I hate this feelings so much.

2 day to go i'm alone in this house. I want to study with u guys!!!! waaa.... Never mind, anything for aman. I'll sacrifice..

LOVE my honeybee friends at kmk and my bff.

undefined....

Dear bloggie, as writen on the title my feelings right now is undefined. Don't know how to describe it by words.. Do not know.. whether i'm mad, full of despair, exuberant,tired of lies,................

Why almost all men out there is caring and sweet talker. If they always.................. hurmm.. my mind can't translate the informations or thoughts...

Hanif, i do agree... this feelings make me hyperventilate. Relationships is hard. Its like breathing with no oxygen supply. Yeah.. I hate this feelings. It's torturing!!! It's not fun having this kind of feeling you see.

eNlightenment..

Dear bloggie..
I couldn't illustrate what i'm thinking right now. As if, I want to write all the thoughts in my head at one time. Let us follow the hierarchy..

About my real dad:
Hurmm.. His physically just like me except he his a man in his late 44th. I could say he his now a very successful man, husband, father. Yeah.. although i never stay with him ever within 19 years.. Well what the hack. I didn't mind at all coz i have my loving stepfather!!! I stay with my mom and him since i was 3 years old.. yeah..

So, he his (real dad) ..

1. Before this he has problem control his anger, couldn't manage his own life.

2. He has been cheated. In a lot of ways.. business.. in personal life..

3. He really have his ups and downs. Years ago..

4. He work hard to gain this position.

5. He extreme dislike wasting. Food expecially.

6. He earn Brabus! It cost like 1 big banglo i think.

7. He has his own company!!

8. He has everythg right now. A happy family..


Thus, conclusion is...
every single person will change from worst to good, Good 2 better, Better 2 great!
But still every person in this world could change from great to worst. Believe me there is.
Infact,
My perspectives now has change towards the people who easily out going and hang out types. Just to let u know, most of the people who doing the bad and unmoral thing is the goos and innocent face. Yeah so snap out if it.. don't judge a book by its cover. Don't be fool around. get to know him or his more first.

Life do complicated..
life doesn't always go how u planned it is..
Life is short.. enjoy yourself but draw the line.. do not exceeds the line.

Relationship is totally complicated..
You do not know who's the one for you..
You do not know what will went wrong or right in the future..
You do not know if u choose the wrong person..
The only thing that u could do is.....
Let the times tell,
let it flow through you..
Let it be..

p/s; Do appreciate all people around you.. Do love them as much they love you.

Genting trip...

arrive at the Awana hotel





we ain't ride that..





4D place






Shoot by emal with the big camera






we're in reindeer cruiser




At skyway station





Floating huh..




1st day in indoor games




Excitation face 0+0



dear bloggie,

we went to genting last thursday n friday. It went well and trully enjoying.. let the pictures tell you the journey and the story. 2days 1 night. RM 44.30 outdoor theme park+skyway ride up and down+bus. Rm159 1 night per room. We ate Tuna, sardin, bread. My family bought cake for our friend birthday paan. Fiqa bought cake for him oso, secrets recipe u noe.

later...

an eye opener..

Dear bloggie,





I do not know why i feel so suffocated... life is unpredictable.. u cant control yourself.... obviously im being despair here... do not know why..do not know what is the reasons behind this. Really.. I just find out and conceive that we could not be the person we want to be. i mean not being ourself just to make other people happy.I try to done that, it felt like i'm living in a lie. Yeah it felt in a cage. There's no oxygen supply. I can't spread my wings flape through the blue sky. it really felt nice if u an eagle. U own the sky!!!!

I love being me.. myself.. siti filzah.. warmth heart loving person.. its me.. just me and my lovers.. when i use my sis account for FB. I add my kmk peeps. I found that they really like to 'broadcast' their daily lifestyle and their loving story to public. For me it is dangerous to let other people know on what your doing and with who.. It is just not right using your Fb just for that reasons. They should do something relevan bout the technologies provided.(i sound really melancholy). I am...

new ifo

Did u guys know that sugar is one of the main source(sumber utama), so it is trully valueable now. Since we short off sugar. So There are other alternative producing sugar which is from stevia ( a herb). Wake up we are running of sugar, that is why the market price has increased.

other thing..

Why are guys like 2 be a casanova or pretend to be a nice and gentleman.. toward the girls. And pretend they are single but THEY ARE REALLY NOT!! I hate lies.. i hate made up story. i hate to be the person who show my sympathy toward the people who shouldn't deserves one..

Ok i need to do my notes.. later..